I feel so lost at the moment and feel all alone. I know my husband is there for me all the time and listens to me but i feel he really does not understand what is going on within me and how little things that are not going right at the moment are sending me into tears.
I am crying almost everyday and just really hating myself.
I am having problems at work with a backstabber, as soon as i take a holiday this woman goes sneaking to the boss and tittle tattles about me, i just do not know who i can trust anymore. I work 12 hour nightshifts twice a week and i dread going into work as i feel really paranoid the other person i am working with is going to relay everything i say to the backstabber. Who i really thought was a understanding friend.
My health is really bad and i had to drop a shift a week at work as i was ill all the time and still am.
I guess i should be glad i am admitting to myself that i have depression but so scared to go to doctors for fear of them thinking i am a nuisance. i am crying even writing this, i just cannot see myself being happy. My husband has been having problems at work which has made home life bad as we both end up snapping at each other over small things and then realise we talked nasty to one another and the cry in each others arms.
I feel so low and need some advice on my next step.
Thanks for listening
Suzanne
xxxxxx
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It definitely sounds like depression. Get to a doctor and get some help as soon as you can. Depression is a treatable medical condition and with all of the treatments available, there is no reason to suffer from it.
Illness, stress at work, etc can all contribute to it and make it worse. And in a vicious cycle, depression can actually make you sick, cause you to be irritable and make your relationships suffer, etc. And it sounds like that's exactly what you're dealing with right now. Breaking that cycle with treatment will improve your life in so many ways.
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Thankyou very much for your quick reply hun, it really does mean alot. I know i should bite the bullet and head off to the doctors. I will see if i can make an appointment. I just get scared they think i am a nuisance as of late i have never been away from the place.
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The doctors seem like the scariest part of dealing with depression. In reality the reason we are scared to go to the doctor is because we ourselves will be forced to deal with everything. From personal experience, doctors are there to help. As hard as it is, it is important to allow yourself to feel what you need to. The good and the bad. Allowing yourself to acknowledge these feelings and seek support then you have overcome the tallest hurdle. Don't think of yourself as needing help, think of yourself as needing support. Help suggests that there is something wrong with you and there isn't. Support is knowing that you are not alone and that there is someone who cares. Good Luck sweetie.
Having suffered depression for many years and been on anti depressents, and done all the normal things to help exercise etc I have finally bitten the bullet and arrange to meet a therapist on 5th Jan BE a nuicance dont waste the years like I have with depression feelign useless, ugly, and scared
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I know i should bite the bullet and head off to the doctors. I will see if i can make an appointment. I just get scared they think i am a nuisance as of late i have never been away from the place.
