So, I am supposed to go back to the RE in a couple of weeks and I can't even summon the strength to think about it. I don't know what to do and I feel completely unmotivated to try again. I have had two miscarriages in the last 6 months! Shouldn't I get a break? I don't feel like I should take one since I am 34 and not getting any younger. My heart is telling me to wait a while until I feel stronger, but I feel like I should "get back on the horse". Does any of this make sense? I just don't know if this is fear and anxiety or my heart really telling me to wait a while. How do you know when you are ready to go back and face the possible heartbreak again?
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If you don't feel strong and ready, take some more time. Sometimes even one month can make a world of difference. It's your decision, so don't think of any other pressures. You'll know when the excitement of hope comes in and gives you a nudge, and there's no reason to try to be brave without it.
Lots of Hugs!
Sheri
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Big ((((HUGS)))) to you. If you don't feel ready right now, then you shouldn't feel any pressure to ttc until you do feel ready.
Has your re or dr suggested any RPL testing, or have you undergone any? I know for me, it helped me know why I lost my baby, and what possibly could be done in the future to reduce the chances of another mc.
I am so sorry for your losses. My thoughts are with you~
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Thank you. Yes, I have done the RPL testing and they didn't really find anything. I haven't had an HSG, but I don't know if that's appropriate since I am obviously able to get pregnant. I just can't sustain a pregnancy past 6 weeks for some reason. I am just SO overwhelmed with all of the unanswered questions and the question of what we should do next. It makes my head hurt to even think about it. Thanks again for the kind words. I have no idea why we have to go through this. I feel like I'm a born loser.
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Ann, I had something called a hysteroscopy done about a month ago. It's like a colonoscopy, only on your uterus. There can be things in your uterus (such as a fibroid or polyp) that would impede a baby's ability to grow. It was a very painless, quick experience. My RE performed it in his "surgery" room at his office.
I wish you the best of luck in your journey, whether you jump back in to TTC or decide to take a rest. You are a good woman, I can tell, and you deserve the best.
((HUGS)). I'm sorry. I think that a pregnancy takes a lot of emotional strength after a loss (even more after multiple losses). I'd take a break and build up your strength.
My OB/GYN gave me a month's supply of clomid at my 6-week follow-up! He's no longer my doc, BTW. Others sometimes think that moving onto another pregnancy will somehow make a loss less intense. We all know that's not true. I'm thinking of you.
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I decided to call and cancel the appointment this morning. The minute I did, I felt a weight lift off of me. Who knows how much tossing and turning I was doing over this? I just need not to worry about this for a while. It's only been 9 weeks since my last loss and I'm just not ready. I think of all of this as a battle and I don't feel "ready for battle" yet. I'm going to drink margaritas and enjoy the feeling of NOT having to face a daily shot for a while! Thanks for the support, guys! We all deserve so much better than we have received so far. Let's hope all our dreams come true soon!
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All adoption paperwork is done and we are patiently (ha!) waiting for our little dream come true!
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Yeah, it definitely sounds like you made the right decision. My "time off" was really good for me, and I'm glad I did it. Now I am VERY ready to start again. You'll know it, too, when you are there. I'm glad you found some peace for now.
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Whew! I'm glad that was the right choice. A margarita sounds like a wonderful idea to me! Take it very easy, and we'll be here if you need to vent and such.
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First pregnancy ended at 23 weeks due to incompetent cervix.
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Second loss March 9, 2004 at five weeks
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So unsure... 
