 Somebody Please help me! Please...
I was diagnosed with PCOS and my OB/GYN referred me to a fertility clinic. I haven't been ovulating and my husband and I haven't been able to conceive. I CANNOT tolerate Glucophage. It completely spaces me out and makes me feel downright spaced out.
I have tried it on several different occasions, but no luck. Anyhow, the STUPIDLY rude fertility doc, said OH, you don't have PCOS! Whatever. I knew I had it before I was diagnosed. I highly respect my usual doc and trust his opinion. The reason I am writing is because I have been suffering from PANIC ATTACKS, WHILE SLEEPING, WHILE COOKING, AT WORK, ETC. FOR NO APPARENT REASON! I do have the normal financial stresses, and I have the stress of a terrible ex husband. My mother and father don't speak to me any more. Which is NOT my fault. My mother has mental issues and my father is only being protective of her. For example, My mother took up for my ex husband and stopped talking to me during our divorce. He beat me, and then kicked my nine year old son repeatedly, until he wet his pants. My mother's response was, "Maybe he deserved it". Needless to say, I cannot continue a relationship with her. We were going to counseling during my divorce and my son told the counselor, during one of his private sessions. My son was afraid to tell me that this happened, because his father told him that, YOUR mom won't ever take me back if she finds out. So, he never told me. I found out through the counselor and child protective services.
Anyhow, that 14 year marriage is over and we are healthy and happy now. I am now remarried to a wonderful man. I also have a seven year old daughter. She's wonderful.
My idiot ex husband keeps demanding visitation and I don't want to put my kids in danger. I was repeatedly beaten during our marriage. He threatened my life many times and tried to kill me several times. Anyhow, my son and daughter DO love their father and DO miss their father.
This is what I think is causing my panic attacks. I feel guilty for not allowing them to see their father, because of how they miss him. He calls our house repeatedly, daily, but doesn't pay the court ordered child support, or insurance. Anyhow, I can't sleep at all. My heart is racing. I am on blood pressure medication and even on medication to slow my heart. I feel physically ill. I want to have a child with my new wonderful husband of two years. I am not getting any younger, but I am NOT healthy enough. Please help me cope!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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