Well, about this time last year I conceived my miracle baby. We were not trying at the time but not preventing either. I had been told about 8 months earlier that I would not be able to conceive without IF treatments (which are not an option on this island). I did not know I was pregnant until 4/23/08 when I had emergency surgery for an ectopic tubal rupture. My u/s's (had 4 of them) showed a healthy fetus. The size measured 8 wks but development was almost 10 wks. I was devasted. As the dr (who I ended up loving, and now has lost her life) wheeled me to my room, I begged her to save my baby. I pleaded with her to try and transplant my baby into my womb.
I thought I was over my loss. I thought I would be strong about not having my baby to hold. But now, I sit here in tears.
I cannot believe it has been a year since I conceived my miracle. In 2 months, I will memorializing my loss. I was just praying God will allow me to carry a child by now.
I know God has a plan and I must be patient. It just hurts.
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DSS 5/30/04 (always will be mine)
hugs to you. To me, when my "due date" came hit me WAY harder than my one year anniversary. But everyone is so different. I"m sorry for your loss of your little dear one. Healing vibes to you.
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I am so sorry you are feeling down. I too believe God has a plan and it is a great one. I know after I had my m/c I would contantly be thinking about how far along I would be and when the EDD came it was so hard and sometimes I still think that my DD/DS would be almost 2 now. It is very hard and I will always love my angel baby (my little peanut) because that is what he/she looked like on my first u/s before I lost my angel. Keep up the wonderful faith that you have. I know that it is hard but have faith in God because miracles do happen. My DD Macy is living proof!!
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TTC~5 yrs.
1 Angel baby in the arms of Jesus!
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Rena - Congrats on your soon pg. If you wait 3 days from your due date to have have him, then he can have my DSS b-day.
Lina - I love you guys too!
I think what makes this so hard for me, is the fact that my baby was healthy. If he/she had been in my womb I would have most likely had a successful pregnancy. It was me that was in a life/death situation.
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DSS 5/30/04 (always will be mine)
im so sorry for u sandv......i just lost my baby recently- i was supposed to be due in oct 1st week-dunno what ill do around then.......i feel calm and at peace now but im afraid ill break all over again then........
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1st clomid 50 mg cycle/ovidrel-BFP!!!-1/23/09-12 dpo
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You need to be strong and not give up hope. God does have a plan.
Jules
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2 M/C
One angel baby lost at 6 Mo.-Ethan 12/13/03
DD-Charley-Born 12/16/04
Pregnant with triplets! Due 10/10/06 Girl/Girl/Boy!
I think what makes this so hard for me, is the fact that my baby was healthy. If he/she had been in my womb I would have most likely had a successful pregnancy. It was me that was in a life/death situation.
I haven't been in your shoes, so I don't know what it's like. But I can try to emphasize. That must have been a painful decision to make, and I can't even begin to imagine the pain of that loss. Words really can't even begin to describe how much it must have hurt I am so sorry you had to go through that, and so sorry that you lost your little one.
Sending you a huge (*HUG*)
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"If you're going through hell, keep going." Winston Churchill
Stephanie - Ultimately, there was no decision to make. I was not given a choice. The dr and DH knew that I would have lost my life if I went any further. Your words and thoughts do mean so much to me. Thanks.
Meggy - I am deeply sorry for your loss. I know you will find strength in yourself to get through this emotional time.
Jules - You are right and I know that.
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DSS 5/30/04 (always will be mine)
Hi Sue,
Your story is so heartbreaking. Don't give up hope. Your baby will come to you when the time is right.
Lots of hugs from your cyster in Mexico,
Kimmy
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TTCing since 4/04--now 40 & fab!
2 precious angels: 1/07--"Faith" m/c 6.5 weeks;
2/09--m/c 8.5 weeks
3/09--Accepted for adoption
4/5/09--Surprise BFP after D & C!
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--Maya Angelou
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Today is one day. I have plans to plant a grapefruit tree (seedling) that I have been growing from a seed that last few months. After that, I told DH I would not talk about it anymore.
Thanks for everyone's wonderful support. I am going to allow God's will to take over in regards to me having a baby. If He wants it to happen, then He will make it happen.
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DSS 5/30/04 (always will be mine)
Soon to be 1 year 
I am so sorry you had to go through that, and so sorry that you lost your little one.
