Within the last 3-4 weeks i have really started struggling with my depression again.I have always had some depression since I was a teenager but about 10 yrs ago when I had my DD.. I went into big time depression.Ever since then I have been on meds.There were times where I thought I was ok and went off meds but within a 2 month period I was back on.So once again I am going down slowly to the black hole.Not wanting to go to work but do anyway because I need to.I want to cry.I hate this.Also the little voice in my head is rearing again with the negative talk which makes my depression worse.I realize I need to lose alot of weight.During my depression I eat to make me feel better ..I acutally eat for every reason.So the eating has gotten me to needing to lose about 80lbs.Which just seems impossible and i just want to sleep.Last sunday I did make a step and stopped eating sugar and flour.I am hoping this will help.I have had a hard time because i am wanting to eat junk food but I am doing it.This coming tuesday I have a appt with a pysch nurse practioner t help me with my meds.I am praying this will help.But right now I am so tired of being down and on the verge of tears.I just want to hide and sleep.Right now I cant ever see that the weight will come off.It is all very sad.
Angie, I am sorry that you are feeling so down lately. I hope your appointment goes well with the psych nurse and you guys can come up with something that will work for you. I have been through the same thing with meds, going on and off them...its a crazy thing. Good for you for cutting out sugar and flour. I find that sugar makes me hyper but then I drop really quick and feel crappy.
Please take care and stay safe during this difficult time,
Mel
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(((((Hugs)))))! Angie I am so sorry you are going through this. PCOS and all the crazy hormones and Met sometimes pulls me in the dumps too. I am going to say a prayer for you and hope that things start to look up soon. I just want to add God Loves you!
I am actually doing a little bit better.The appointment went great.Plus I have another visit in a few weeks.The person I saw is quite sure she can help me and get me back to almost normal.I am excited because i hate being this way.She also mentioned I may need to go on combination drugs to help.So I will see how the next visit goes.
i cry all the time for no apparent reason. i hate what is happening to me. but i have started to take controle. i swim every day and that helps the way i look but not the way i feel. nothing will ever make it alright you just have to find some way of dealing with it, eating is not the answer three steps back. you can do it you can baeat this. we all hate it and everything is **** but there are worse things that could happen. take controle it is your life the way you want to live it. you can do it.
always
claire xxxxxx
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