chloedancer1975

First and foremost I am thankful for my wonderful husband John and my father Wane. They have both been such champs throughout this struggle. I feel so very fortunate to have TWO men in my life that support and love me so much.
When I talked with my husband before we married about there being a chance I might not be able to have children, even though he wants children as bad as I do it was as though I told him there was a chance I might not vacuum today, like it didn't matter to him one bit. I needed that so much at that time, to know I was okay, that I was still worth marrying, still worth being thought of as a woman whether I could have children or not.
He has sat in the OB/GYN office with me through painful testing, sat in the waiting room for hours while I underwent laparoscopy, held my hand when I cried because I couldn't stand the sight of ONE MORE negative pregnancy test, he has been strong at times when I couldn't understand how he could take it anymore, when I was just broken and tired. I love him more than I have the words or capacity to describe and I am grateful to God every day for John's presence in my life.
My Dad, my poor Dad has driven hours from his home to be with me when I needed him. He has taken care of me when I was sick, has helped us when we couldn't pay our medical bills and has CONSTANTLY been the voice of optimism.
I had an ultrasound a few months ago that showed a large unusual cyst, I was terrified. I called my Dad weeping, afraid of what was to come. I could hear the fear and worry in his voice but he said "It's going to be okay, they will find out what it is and take care of it, everything is going to be fine." When I had laparoscopy, he drove all day to be here with me, he even came a day early so he could take me out to dinner at my favorite restaurant. He stayed for nearly a week after my surgery to help take care of me, bought me a recliner to sleep in because my incision hurt when I laid down. He has been there for me EVERY TIME I needed him throughout my life and has never failed me. I can't thank him enough and do not have the words to describe how much I love him. I am truly blessed by God to have such a wonderful father.
Secondly, I am eternally grateful for my best friend Kornelia.. she is the sweetest and most gentle-hearted person I know. She is thoughtful, she never judges and will listen to me blather on for hours whether I am at my worst or best and never makes me feel like my feelings are anything less than truly important to her. She brought me flowers when my period didn't come after my last round of Prometrium, while I was waiting for the results of my blood pregnancy test, she wrote on the card "Either Way? Love, Kornelia".. could anyone ask for a better friend than that? I love her and think she is a wonderful person, and appreciate her and her friendship. Whether she knows it or not, her being there for me, just listening has helped me immeasureably.
Finally, I am grateful for this group. Knowing that I am not alone, that there are other women out there JUST LIKE ME has given me so much. Hearing the struggles of the women who have circumstances far worse than mine has humbled me and reminded me to be grateful, hearing the successes has encouraged me to be strong and keep hope. Thank you all for sharing, you are all incredibly courageous- I wish everyone the best of luck and hope good things come to you all!!

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