I know that I have family and a very loving husband,and Im not seeking to be perfect. Defently not that. Just dont know. I feel like something is missing. Like im in the wrong place. I have a great life, people envy it, so why isnt it good enough for me? I have a great home , wonderful husband , perfect job. So whats lacking. Or am i in a rut? Am i the only one who sees the hole in me? I just dont know what to do. Prayers only show me to be thankful for what i have. Cause i have a lot. But Why cant I find that smile? Ive even lost the giggles. Im just stuck. I totally feel like this isnt for me. That I'd be happier alone. In a empty house, going to school and work. But is that right? I cant just ditch everything to make me happy. Will i even be happy? Everyone says that I will know if its right. But isnt this right? I just cant find all the pieces.
Im just so frustrated. Seems like time flies but where did it go? And why. The more I try to figure it out the more agervated I get. I dont want to throw rocks in the perfect puddle just to see if ripple make me well content.
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