bhaynes

I was diagnosised with PCOS on 11/7/02 At age 32 have had facial hair since age 12, depression since age 14 wit hsuicidal attempts, and obese since age 10now very angry about this PCOS thing. Has anyone been stared at while in a store or tease so much by family that you go in a corner and cry. Or even have someone love you so much that you ca not even love them back because of the way you look and feel about yourself. Ladies I am new at this and scared but most of all I think or am realizing that I am angry with the world. People have no clue what is going on with me Well 1/2 the time I don't even know. Cysters I am crying out for help.
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Calantha

I just wanted to send you a big ***HUG*** I've been a lot of those places, and I'm pretty sure you could use one right about now.
As for the poll, I chose faith in God and praying because I think that's where all healing starts. The other things are important as well, but they all come from Him. Please feel free to pm or email if you ever need to talk.
-Brandy

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HISIRISHGEM

I think at one time or another, we ALL had similar situations. Right now I'm at my highest weight of 220. I'm 5'2 and look horrible........I'm harder on myself, than anybody could ever be on me, however, I tend to push my husband away at times, because I don't feel like he should be seen with someone like me. He thinks its nonsense and says that he loves me no matter how hard I push him aside....however, When I get in moods like that, he pulls out the Bible and reads Gods word to me.......B, God knew us before we were even born, he knew what we would look like both inside and out. He knows the desires of our hearts, and will help us when we are down, and celebrate with us when we're happy. He blesses us in so many ways, that sometimes we all don't see some of the positives, but look at the negatives about ourselves. How can we ever become the beautiful women we already are, if we're constantly looking at what we do wrong, eat wrong, or how we look to others?? The object is to take every day as it comes, and see the positives, maybe we didn't lose that 10lbs this month, but at least we lost 1lb. Maybe I can't fit into that beautiful dress I want, but someday I WILL!! , Maybe others think I'm dressed wrong, look wrong, or think I'm not smart....but there are others who are my FRIENDS, who love me for who I am, who see me not by what I wear, but by the love and Joy I bring to them.

Do I like to crawl in a corner and cry?? Nope, I sure don't.....have I?? Yup, sat right on a bathroom floor at a restaurant blatting my eyes out. What have I learned from those experiences?? Well, I've learned that I give too much power to certain Human Beings who don't know a great deal about their own selves..why should I live my life around their thoughts of me, if they don't even have it together themselves?? Another thing I've learned......Satan doesn't want us to be happy with ourselves....He doesn't want us to grow closer to Jesus Christ, He wants us to believe we are dirt and aren't worthy of Gods love, grace, mercy, and blessings. So what i'm doing with my negative thoughts is letting Satan take my life away of pure happiness and joy that God wants me to have.

No, life isn't always Hap hap happy, but I was listening to someone speak the other day, and what they said was.....life is like a thermostat.........we are the ones that are able to change the tempature, and life is the temperature going up and down. There is Joy and there is happiness..........We can always have joy in our lives.....the pure joy that God gives us to any given day.....for instance, the radiator breaks on our cars, we can choose to worry about it and be angry all day, or we can say, Praise God! Let Him take over knowing that he has the power to help us. Happiness is the total happiness that takes time and lots of work....being happy with ones job, being happy in a marriage, being happy with our children one day.......all that is what takes work.....no marriage is perfect right away!! It takes two people to get to know one another, love one another unconditionally during the bad times, and lots and lots of comprimise...otherwise, its easy to just give up!!

So know that you are not alone.....but learn to lean on Jesus Christ during these unbarable times! Our strength comes from Him....I know that when I armour myself through the blood of Jesus, I am not only able to give myself a positive attitude, but am able to help others through His perception. Lean no on your own understanding.........Lean on Him and He shall direct your path!!

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For me it is a combination of things- but faith in God is at the top.

Rebekah-

Once again, I have to commend you- you show TRUE faith- a faith that I strive for but honestly have not yet achieved. I know that the only thing we can do is do our best and then give the consequences up to God. Sometimes for me, I must admit, that's easier said than done- but I am working on it. I cannot lie and say I live the best life that I can- but I sure am trying- taking it day by day and trying to keep my eyes and ears open for the answers I seek. I know the pressures you have been under lately and I just wanted to comment that you seem to handle everything that comes your way with such grace! You inspire me- I wanted you to know that. And thanks for all the support you have given to me. In times when I felt like there were few who I could lean on here, you have truly made me feel better


*Aimee*

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HISIRISHGEM

Dearest Aimee,

Wow!! I am so humbled by your thoughts above, but I have to tell you that I really don't have it all together. In fact sometimes I'm just so scared and so depressed that I don't think I can make it through!! That grace that your talking about, its not me....I can't take any of the credit, because if you would have seen me under all this pressure, you would have seen a frightened, depressed, almost broken woman........The only thing I felt I had was prayer, and even then, sometimes my husband prayed for me, because I couldn't do it myself. Not because I was sick, but because I was angry!! That grace you see is from God.

That faith that you think you lack at times....Its there....may be that little bit that helps you to Aimee, thats where it starts. I have to keep reminding myself everytime I take my worries back that I need to give them back to the Lord. I just keep saying, "Jesus, take my worries, I can't handle them" seems like a million times a day. If I can do it, so can you and anyone else who wants to.

I just don't want you thinking that I'm this girl that has it all together and has such an abundance of Faith, because I tell you, its a task, everyday, to maintain that faith....but what keeps me going is where it talks about the mustard seed In the Gospels. If we have the faith of a teeny tiny mustard seed, we can move mountains. Well, I have that teeny tiny faith, and who knows maybe alittle more than that.......but anything more takes lots of prayer and reminders.

In conclusion, the one thing that put tears in my eyes, was when you said I helped you!! That is what I live to do is serve God, and give back to others. I hope you know that there are times when I never thought I could handle things myself and you too helped me through. Don't ever give up.......God see's that your trying.......nobody on this earth is perfect and has it together, If we can lean on Jesus through our lifetime, when its so hard in this secular world with people who think we're freaks......our life beyond will be so beautiful!

Another thing before i go, you are ministering to alot of women on SC's. Women who are wounded, angry, bitter, and searching for Truth.......that in itself is a great servant!! Don't you forget that!!

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bhaynes,

I'm not really good at this thing myself, I was diagnosed last month. I knew something was wrong a long time ago, but didn't know what it was. I thank God that now I finally know what is wrong, so that he can deliver me from it. I was teased in junior high for being 'chubby', the kids were very cruel and i was contemplating suicide at 13. All I know is that God has kept me and held me all these years. I still get depressed, have crying spells and think about suicide, but I keep going because God loves me, keeps me going and He will do the same thing for you. God loves you and wants you to keep going. I usually pray every morning just to get myself up and going. I know that things seem hopeless right now, but you HAVE TO BELIEVE that things will get better. Sometimes I read this email that a friend sent me, when I feel bad or my faith wavers:

YOU SAY
GOD SAYS
BIBLE VERSES

You say: "I feel all alone"
God says: I will never leave you or forsake you
(Hebrews 13:5)

You say: "It's impossible"
God says: All things are possible
(Luke 18:27)

You say: "I'm too tired"
God says: I will give you rest
(Matthew 11:28-30)

You say: "Nobody really loves me"
God says: I love you
(John 3:16 & John 3:34)

You say: "I can't go on"
God says: My grace is sufficient
(II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)

You say: "I can't figure things out"
God says: I will direct your steps
(Proverbs 3:5-6)

You say: "I can't do it"
God says: You can do all things
Philippians 4:13)

You say: "I'm not able"
God says: I am able
(II Corinthians 9:8)

You say: "It's not worth it"
God says: It will be worth it
(Roman 8:28)

You say: "I can't forgive myself"
God says: I Forgive you
(I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)

You say: "I can't manage"
God says: I will supply all your needs
(Philippians 4:19)

You say: "I'm afraid"
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear
(II Timothy 1:7)

You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"
God says: Cast all your cares on ME
(I Peter 5:7)

You say: "I don't have enough faith"
God says: I've given everyone a measure of faith
(Romans 12:3)

You say: "I'm not smart enough"
God says: I give you wisdom
(I Corinthians :30)

PASS THIS ON.
YOU NEVER KNOW WHO MAY BE IN NEED OF THIS TODAY.

God Bless You, I will say a prayer for you that God will direct and guide you.

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"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."
Romans 8:28

Age 33/ DH 34/ DD 8 years old and DD 3 year old

DX 10/2002
05/03 left ovary removed

02/2009
nodule found on thyroid, Dx of Thyroiditis??????

04/2009
Cushing's Disease

Current Meds: topamax, wellbutrin, spironolactone
240/218/goal:148