I don't know that I've posted here in the depression forum much, I'm usually a "lurker" anyway. (Very bad social anxiety.) But I suffer from many mental problems, including severe depression. I've actually been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder w/ Psychotic Features. I also have Panic Disorder, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, and pretty bad Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder. It seems like I'm on a million meds sometimes, and it gets very depressing swallowing my handful of pills every day. On top of the BCP and Met for the PCOS, I'm also on Zoloft for PTSD, OCD, depression, and panic disorder, Anafranil for depression and OCD, Risperdal for the psychotic features, Tegretol XR for the mania, PTSD, and also for migraines, Vistaril for insomnia, Valium as needed when I have a panic attack, Zestril for high blood pressure, Albuterol as needed for asthma, and Valtrex for the neverending herpes virus I contracted that my body just can't seem to fight off. And on top of all this, for my next cycle I also have to take 10 days of Prometrium to hopefully bring my AF back. I want so badly just to quit all my meds, go the natural way and take herbs, and never take another rx as long as I live. But I know that would be a bad idea. But I don't want to be a walking pill bottle for the rest of my life. I'm only 22 for goodness sake.
Is there by chance anyone else here that has to deal with lots of things like this? I feel completely overwhelmed by all of this most of the time, and it makes me extremely depressed. I even landed myself in a mental institution last year for being very suicidal. Is there hope for me? Will I ever be med. free? And will I ever be free of all this? It's hard to see myself being well again, but I want to be better more than anything. It's just really hard, you know? Sorry to dump all of this on all of you, but I don't know, I just need to hear some encouragement or some signs of life out there.
(((((BIG HUGS))))) I don't have any advice for you (sorry) but you come here and rant away all you want! Can you talk to your doctor and tell him/her your concerns? To me, that does seem to be a lot of meds that you are on.
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I am on alot of meds too plus all the vitamins I take
I agree you should talk to your doc about your feelings and I would suggest conselling it can really help!
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((((((((HUGS)))))))) I don't have much experience in this area, so I can't offer much advice, but I do hope that you are feeling well soon and I agree that maybe you should talk to your doc. about the concerns you have with your medications. If he is unwilling to help, then maybe you can check out a different doc. for a second opinion. Good luck and hope that you feel better soon!
Hi--
I have many of the same symptoms you have. This week I had a psychotic episode and come to find out it was hormone induced. I have been through many meds and doctors. I am finally going to try a hysterectomy and take out my ovaries. I am tired of feeling crazy.
Let me know if you want to chat. Take care!!
I am a fellow veggie as well
Patti
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PCOS for 21 years I am 35
Hirutism
Hypoglycemia
(Extreme Depression with suicidal ideation) Now lessened after my hysterectomy
Lived a life going to doctors that had no understanding of PCOS--which was mistakably called bi-polar, OCD, depression, hypomanic and more....
1 precious little girl
Thanks so much Patti and everyone else, for the support. I am feeling pretty down today, because my doc put me on 10 days of Prometrium to start my AF, which has been absent for 3 years. And I took my last pill 5 days ago, and still nothing from AF. If AF hasn't shown up by my doc's apt. next week, I don't know what the next step is that they're going to take. Hopefully not another D&C. Geez this gets so tiring sometimes. And on top of that, I was referred to a neurologist earlier in the week, and they think I have Multiple Sclerosis. I have trouble walking, I continually fall, my legs burn and go numb, among other things. I'm only 22, and I have to ride the little handicapped carts around the grocery store already. I go in for brain, spinal, and cervical MRI's on Monday, to see if there's scarring on my brain from MS, or if there's anything else going on. I'm trying not to be nervous, or depressed, but it gets hard sometimes, when it seems like I'm undergoing a neverending attacks on my body and my mind. It seems like all this **** will never end. Sorry to dump on you guys again, I'm just having a bad day is all.
I had a good cry last night because I've been getting scared I guess you could say.
Hey there Jade. I am also bi-polar and have anxiety and panic attacks. I have to take many pills too, and I know it can be extremely frustrating to HAVE to take pills, and to go see all these doctors (who aren't even very nice most of the time) ect. I am just wondering, I mean in your case all the anti-psychotic meds your on can cause some of your other problems..your meds might be causing some of your problems..emotional and physical..I would ask about that..Anyway, if you want to chat we can I'm at melharris_05@yahoo.com. Best of luck!
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Jade, I know what ur going through and I do have some thoughts that could help....
1....you do need to get off of some of those med's your on so many your body doesn't know which way to go up, down, sideways, and your mind can't take it at all, which causes you more problems then you really have...
2.... i don't know where you are from but if you wanted something to help you out also you could take a yoga class .... it does help out... it allows you to focus on something else even if it is for a few hours.... you can do it in ur own house or take a class... i would take a class that way you can learn the right ways of yoga and after a few months do in it you own home... it helps you mind reset in away and for some reasons you can be in another world that calms you down and allows you to be normal in this world as well....
3... talk to a friend or a stranger that is not judgemental about your thoughts... we all have crazy thoughts and when we keep them in out heads and don't let them out they drive us crazy and off the walls...sometimes just saying them out loud to another persons helps big time... just let them know that you might say some crazy things but that they are thoughts and u need to just let them out... writing in a book helps but not really a book doesn't give you that comfort a human can... a person can laugh with you about some of the things you say and let you know your thoughts are funny or if they are stranger let you know that everyone is thinking the same we just don't act on it....
4... i'm not to sure how bi-polar you are but most do sometimes black out and spend all their money or go crazy and paint everything red... if your this far along then i would give my money and bills to someone i trusted who would pay them off and only give me what i needed when i needed... this will keep you out of debt and out of trouble... i know a few who have gone mad for now reason and just wasted everything
they had and their houses looking like bleeed baths because they painted them all red... if you are at that point you should have someone live with you like a roomie so that they can kinda of watch over you so you don't do this... also having some one live with you can make you a lot more normal when being bi-polar...
I'm not a doctor by no means at all i've just been through a lot.... between me and my mom.... my mom use to take so many pills i couldn't even count them.. plus what i was taking ... we were both going to go crazy... i was to young for that and so was my mom... i was up late one night cause i couldn't sleep... i was so bad with med's that if you died in front of me i wouldn't have any reaction other then oh...that was not right ..well that night there was so and this doctor was talking about how now a days family doctors don't have a clue what is wrong with us... and most didn't care really.. that was y they were saying we were crazy, bi-polar, had a screw lose whatever and the reason behind it was all about money... if you take 10 women and put them in a room... ask them to answer 20 questions but don't tell each other.... it is a 90% chance that they all gave the same answer to the questions... however if you take 3 in a room and tell them something ... like the they were bi-polar, another 3 in a room and tell them they are all depressed, and another 3 in a room and tell them they are Psychotic and the one left over tell her she can go home because she is normal...then they can keep on making money off of the 9... u you know i thought about that all that night... before i got on med's i was normal well as normal as the next... i had broken up with my bf and was a little down and my aunt told me to go to the doctor he could help... from there i started with one med and went to 7... and never gave it a thought... i gained weight, i didn't want to hangout with friends, i didn't want to work, all i wanted was to stay in my room and watch tv and eat... that was not who i was ... my mother has always been sick but from her kidney and for some reason lead to one pill to 20 pills... what the lady on tv was saying started making since... so i stoped all my meds the next day... it was very hard for the next 6 months ... but slowly i was getting better... beleive me i was not a very nice person to other people... i still spent a long time by myself ... but i was feeling like me more and more every day.. i was able to lose weight slowly but surely... and that was on reason i was so depressed... now i'm med's free now being a few years... my mom to is down to only the ones she needs for her kidney... she was losing her hair... almost lost her job... and couldn't be there for my little sister like a mom should be bc she was on so many med's .... now she is full of life, living and being happy... both of use to have some crazy thoughts like breaking every dish in the house with a baseball bat... or driving my car into a wall just to see it crash... or getting a pen and punching it in all the meat packages at the stroe... but u know what we found is that a lot of poeple have those thoughts when we are mad or upset... but if u tell a doctor the first thing he says is well i'll give u theses samples of these med's and you can come back in a week and tell me how you feel.... and that is when it all starts well at least for me and those i know... I hope this helps you out in some way... i'm not telling you to go cold turkey like i did bc i don't know your whole case but maybe you should see another doctor and let them know you don't like all the med's and you feel your on a roll coaster and your to young for this... you want to live life your only 22 ... that is what my mom told her new doctor.. she did it that way and slowly each week her NEW doctor took her off of them so she wouldn't go crazy.... cause think about it if you were okay and not on med's would your doctor make any money off of you???? no he would not.... so just to let you know you can feel better with some real help from friends and family and with out all those med's bc if everyone took a test most likey the doctor would say we were all bi-polar bc some of us have crazy thoughts once in a while but the truth is they are just thoughts... well im going to go know i have to clean house lol... but try the yoga it did help me alot... gabbyve79
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