Theres only so much you can take............

Embassy Embroidery · 08-15-2007, 03:53 PM

Hi there everyone. Its one of those days where Im sitting here thinking...

Does anyone else go through times where it seems like no matter what they do, you wonder How did the present wind up being THIS???????

A little background about me....

I was working at the Bridgestone plant here until I got laid off. I have my real Estate license but the fees are over 2000 to start back up again. In the meantime I have been helping my boyfriend of 7 months at his printing store.

Ive been in this mindset all day today. As I stated in my previous posts my sons dad and boyfriend left me after ten years just to marry the girl he was cheating with a year later (I had waited ten years to no avail)

My family isnt the closest but I still love them. My lifes seems to be one of when I think I got things right, something crappy happens.

I, with other people I read on here, have tried the dating sites just to have my heart broken and misled. I did meet a pretty decent guy, but, to be honest guys, I am settling just for the sake of a place to stay and not to be lonely.
Dont get me wrong I actually do love him, but theres so many other factors like:
He lives with his mother. No problem...or at least I thought.....he told me he moved in withher to be able to help her after his dad died. Well it happens not to be true. Its because he had his house forclosed on and needed a place to stay.

It started out with me, my son, him and his mom here. Not a problem. THEN he has his daughter move in. Now mind you I love her, but honestly tolerate her very rudeness and smart mouth for his sake....

THEN his moms friend moves in. Nice lady so there were no problems.

THEN his sister, her husband, and two kids(MONSTERS) moved in. So NOW its a house with 9 people in it with only three bedrooms.

The days now consist of constant yelling from 7 am -11pm because his sister is a huge screamer at her kids. They spend their days running around the house and yelling all day.

I have no friends here in my hometown anymore to be able to stay with. My family is in Arizona, so pretty much Im alone. My son is in Chicago because me and his dad switch yeras.

I spend some days just wondering why cant I finally get it right? Why cant things fall into place as I see so many other people do. I realize not everyone is picture perfect, but its SO hard to meet people when you have no life anymore.

I am now looking for a job, had an interview with a chiropractor, so I have my fingers crossed so I can move out, but its still doesnt take away the loneliness...

kboo · 08-15-2007, 05:31 PM

I'm sorry you're having such a tough time right now. Good luck with the job, I hope you get it. Do whatever you need to in order to get you and your son away from the mayhem. You can't control what other people do (like your @*##* ex boyfriend), but you can control how you react and what you do about it. Big hugs and best of luck to you!!!

KJO2002 · 08-15-2007, 06:42 PM

Wow - what a totally crazy living situation! And I am sorry you wasted so much of your time on your ex.
I have had that "how did I get here?" conversation with myself a few times before.

I hope that your interview goes well!

ChelNY · 08-15-2007, 06:43 PM

Yes, I've had similar thoughts. But you're right. Nobody's life is as perfect as it might seem to an outsider. Everyone has things they have to deal with. And it does seem to me that the older we get, the harder it is to come by a good friend...male or female.

I hope the job works out for you. Then at least you could have some independence.

Embassy Embroidery · 08-15-2007, 08:15 PM

Thank you for your words, it actually made me tear up. Its been a hard day and it just gets harder because I have no where else to go to get away from it all.
I felt like someone gave me a hug personally when I seen the hugz smily. Thanks, I really appreciate it

navy_wife_martin · 08-15-2007, 08:23 PM

well here's another hug for you....((((((HUGGGGSSSS))))))

this too shall pass, sweety.

MiWolverineMommie · 08-15-2007, 08:39 PM

((HUGS)) I would move out just as soon as possible. Just you and your son. Wait or don't wait for your bf to get his life together.

Embassy Embroidery · 08-15-2007, 09:07 PM

My sons now is in Chicago with his dad. I had to tell him tearfully that I need to get my life together,even my son understood. I told my son that I didnt want to bring him down here on my weekends(me and his dad switch school years its his turn now) until I am out of here.
Thank you again all, I cant wait till this is over......

dmsth · 08-16-2007, 11:45 AM

I'm really sorry that you're struggling. ((((HUGS))))

My husband cheated on me when my youngest son was 7 months old. I caught him cheating at an engagement party for a friend of ours. I tried to work thru it but i couldn't get past it, so I left 2 months later.

The boys and I had to move in with my parents. I love them, but they were constantly doing the "i told you so" thing and it irritated me to no end.

I moved into a very small apartment with my boys. It was very difficult but we survived.

Now here I am almost 3 years later and I'm remarried to a wonderful man who loves my boys almost as much as I do. He was a "student doctor" in the OB/GYN office where I was a nurse. We were casual acquaintances. When he heard through a co-worker that I had left my husband we became friends and eventually more.

Hang in there.