Today was my due date...how fast 2yrs goes by.(Child mentioned)
Well, July 28th 2003 was my due date with our first baby. I am very sad today.
Although I do have my DS who is 19 months old I still very much as sad that our first baby isn't with us.
I said something to my DH last night and he said well if the first baby would have lived we wouldn't have Thomas. I know I can't imagine my life without him but he did come from our frozen embies so he would still have been frozen if our first baby would have lived. And more than likely we would have been doing the FET around now to have him.
I love Thomas SO much and I Thank God everyday that I have such a beautiful little miracle.
But I often wonder what our first baby would have been like. I really believe she was a girl. I wonder if she would have looked like Thomas.
Oh Michele, I'm sorry.
As mothers we always think about the babies we lost. Maybe because they are still alive in our hearts. I don't think anyone else could ever feel what we feel. Just remember your baby fondly and just know that she is in heaven with all of our babies having a great time. She is looking down at you and smiling.
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I can definitely relate to how you're feeling. The due date for my first pregnancy would have been earlier this month. That whole week I felt so bothered, but I couldn't put my finger on it. Then, I realized what it was and I was sad. Sad for the baby that we lost and longing for what my life could have been like if he/she was here with us now. I'm not looking forward to the due date that is coming up for the second baby that we lost. That will be in November.
Even though you have a baby, it doesn't take away the fact that you lost another one. It's normal to wonder about what could have been. A loss is a loss. Thanks for sharing with us.
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(((HUGS))) Michelle. Today was my dute date too. I was also due in 2003.
I go through those same thoughts about if I hadn't m/c #1, then I wouldn't have DS and in my case DS wasn't a frozen embryo, so I wouldn't have HIM. I guess I take peace in knowing things happen for a reason. DS is the best thing to happen to me and I don't even want to think about my life without him.
Michele,
I'm so sad for your loss. I hope that Thomas gives you an extra kiss today! It's great that your hubby and you could talk about your little one last night. So many guys don't want to remember and talk... you've got a good one. However you look at the situation with the timing, we all wish that we had all of our babies. I wish you had them both. She would have been gorgeous, just like her brother.
Lots of due date hugs,
Sheri
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Thank you all so much girls. It feels so good to know I have my cysters out there knowing just what I am feeling.
My baby will live on forever in my heart. And I know that I am truly blessed to have Thomas. When he's older and the time is right I will tell him all about his "big" sister.
Today was my due date...how fast 2yrs goes by.(Child mentioned) 
