Today is the day one month ago that I started to m/c and I just wanted to post. I miss my baby, I want him back with me. I also want to get pregnant again. I have so many emotions swirling inside me I am no sure what to do. I have the whole m/c burned into my memory. The worst of which (this may be TMI and sorry if it is) is flushing my baby down the toilet. I keep trying to replace the bad memories with some good ones. Like, how happy I was for those 6 wks, then I just remember the feeling of devistation after my 6 wk appt.
I will be going Monday to get my blood tested to see if I am pg or not. I hope I am but, if so I'm going to be scared as h*ll. How do I not let myself be so stressed-out during the next pg so it dosen't reslut in another m/c. I don't know what exactly to do, I guess for now I'll just take things as they come.
Thanks for letting me get some emotions out ladies. And thank you for all your support.
God Bless
Julie
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God Bless you sweetheart ::Hugs:: I wanted to tell you that I am so sorry for you loss. I know that words not be that much of a comfort to you and I wish I could do more but please know that I am sorry and you will be in my thoughts. I hope that you are pregnant sweetheart and I wish you a healthy, happy delivery. ::Hugs::
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Julie,
I'm so sorry about little Max! I hope you can give him a little sibling soon, and it does involve fear. After you pass the point when you lost the previous baby, it gets a little bit easier. But there's nothing like hearing that first cry. I wish you joy with a new baby as you get through your grief.
Hugs!
Sheri
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First pregnancy ended at 23 weeks due to incompetent cervix.
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I'm so sorry about your loss. A pregnancy after a miscarriage can never be the carefree pregnancy that women who have not know such a loss have. I don't believe that stress can cause you to miscarry. If it could I sure wouldn't have Jamie. I didn't ever get to that point in my pregnancy where I really believed that I was going to get to keep him. I was always sure that something horrible was going to happen. Horrible stuff did happen, but my baby came into this world and he's doing just fine. All you can do is take it one day at a time. I would live in dread and excitement all at the same time. I wish I had known about SC back then so I could have had a little support and education back then. There were times when I thought my world was falling apart and I was absolutely alone. You can never be alone here. You're cysters are here when you need them. If you need to talk feel free to PM me anytime.
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Thank you all so much. You definately helped me through my day today. I am so glad that I have all of you to go to for help, guidance and support. You have no idea how much it means to me. It's amazing to me how many people are willing to help someone that they don't really know, I guess we are all bonded by our similar experiences. Please, everyone take care and God Bless
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Thank you Angelbear! I know that Max is with God and that gives me comfort. I tell Max I love him every night because I know he can hear me even though he's not with me. Thank you for your support.
God Bless
Julie
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That is so very precious...I know Max can hear you as well...and I am sure he is saying that he loves you too as he smiles down on you from Heaven. ::Hugs::
God Bless you sweetheart
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God Bless you and your husband during this diffucult time. I will hope and pray that you are pregnant or will be soon. I have never m/c but I've watched my mother lose 3 of my siblings. I know that it can be a rough ride and the only advice I can give is to cry. Don't bottle up your emotions cause they can be nasty little things and begin to eat at you. It will be a hard and trying time, but my mother never gave up and after 3 failed pregnancies she gave me a little sister. Like I said, I can't say that I know personally what you're feeling, but I know enough to tell you not to give up hope. I'm not one to preach religion as I've lost and recovered my faith many times, but I do believe that God is here and he's got us all covered. Take care and do let us know how things are. XOXO
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God Bless you and your husband during this diffucult time. I will hope and pray that you are pregnant or will be soon. I have never m/c but I've watched my mother lose 3 of my siblings. I know that it can be a rough ride and the only advice I can give is to cry. Don't bottle up your emotions cause they can be nasty little things and begin to eat at you. It will be a hard and trying time, but my mother never gave up and after 3 failed pregnancies she gave me a little sister. Like I said, I can't say that I know personally what you're feeling, but I know enough to tell you not to give up hope. I'm not one to preach religion as I've lost and recovered my faith many times, but I do believe that God is here and he's got us all covered. Take care and do let us know how things are. XOXO
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That is so very precious...I know Max can hear you as well...and I am sure he is saying that he loves you too as he smiles down on you from Heaven. ::Hugs::
God Bless you sweetheart
Thank you so much KatrinaAnne-your post made me smile because I know that he is smiling down on me too. I have a friend who lost her husband a month or so ago-I am a military wife and at my last station we had no reltives around us-and she and her husband took us in like family. Her grandson-who is 4- tells her that Papa is looking at us through the clouds. That is so sweet. That is what I believe also.
jvc_pr-I am so sorry for your mothers losses. I can not imagine having 3 miscarriages. You are a good daughter for being so compasionate to her pain. Thank you for your kind words. I will not give up hope. Hope is all I have right now. I am not extremely religious either. I pray though, and I know I'm being heard. And I am thankful for what I have and even thankful that I was pg because Max gave me a feeling of happiness that I never experienced before, it's absolutely wonderful. Hopefully I will have the joy of a full-term baby and giving birth. But, until then I will pray.
God Bless
Julie
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Today is one month since I lost my baby 
