Trying To Hold On, Sick Of Everyone Getting All The Luck

CPerry1982 · 10-08-2006, 11:07 PM

My depression has gotten worse. I've been crying every night because of the same reason - I'm alone and no one seems to care. Everywhere I go and especially at work all I see is families with their children and women with their husbands... and it really depresses me. when is it going to be my turn? I know I'm young (I'm only 24) but I can't wait anymore, I can't sit back and watch everyone else be happy with their lives when mine has hit rock bottom. Why can't I be married and with a couple of kids what's so wrong with me? I just want to know, I don't want to cry anymore I want to be happy, I can't sit back and watch my peers get married and have kids when I know it's hard for me, I can't deal with it anymore. I've been having thoughts of suicide lately although I know I would never go through with it. Why can't I be happy? what did I do wrong?

~Tasha~ · 10-09-2006, 01:07 AM

I'm so sorry ((Hugs)).

Have you talked to anyone about how you feel.

I hope you do find your soul mate soon.

Also I know from personal experience. You can still have depression etc even with a great husband and children.

CPerry1982 · 10-09-2006, 01:11 AM

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Originally Posted by ~Tasha~

I'm so sorry ((Hugs)).

Have you talked to anyone about how you feel.

I hope you do find your soul mate soon.

Also I know from personal experience. You can still have depression etc even with a great husband and children.

No, I haven't talked to anyone, just my bosses at work about it, and it doesn't seem to help, I can't stand feeling like this anymore what do I have to live for? nothing that I can see, It's not fair.

~Tasha~ · 10-09-2006, 01:30 AM

I agree with the above Jenny.

I don't think talking to your bosses will really help. Apart from them understanding your situation a bit more.

I think counselling could be a good idea.

I have been on medication for the last 3 weeks and they have helped me after losing a baby. I had the same feeling life isn't fair.

I hope you can get some help and encouragement.

CPerry1982 · 10-09-2006, 01:44 AM

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Originally Posted by Jencyster

CPerry, you were making progress and feeling better, what happened ?

I think you may need more than just a shoulder to cry on.....I think you may need meds for your depression.

I know I'm not a doctor and although I can probably offer you some good advice on a number of products that could help, unfortunately I can't. I don't know what other things you're taking and doing which could cause an interaction.

But, I can help you with the simple things.

Exercise should be # 1 on your list of things to do to make you feel better. Get out there and enjoy the sun, heck I even go for a walk when it rains, the point is to keep moving.

Flax seeds !! I know, I've been harping about flax seeds for weeks, but they also help with depression, along with a host of other things and for what little money they cost, it is well worth it to take flax seeds every day !!

DO NOT sit in your room night after night without interacting with others. Call a friend, go meet up for coffee or tea, you don't have to get all dressed up, just go as you are !

STOP thinking about the past and the future. Don't think about something that has already happened, it's done, close that chapter and move on !

Stop thinking about what your future is going to be like, who you will marry and how many kids you will have.

Life is NOT only about marriage, kids, white picket fences, and so on. Life can be SO MUCH MORE ! Yes, it's nice to have those things, but you absolutely have to wait. That doesn't mean that you have to sit around and literally wait !

Have you noticed that many women get married later in life ? They are choosing their career first, they are paying off their debts, travelling with friends, and when it happens, it happens.

And lastly, LIFE IS TOO SHORT ! Don't waste these precious years, your twenties, get up girl from your bed or sofa, and keep going. Wipe your tears because tomorrow is another day. Don't waste another day crying.

Jenny

I apologize Jenny, everything WAS going great, I wasn't worried about a thing until one of my co-workers wouldn't SHUT UP about her pregnancy and that pushed me over the edge. I really hate when people have to rub s*** in your face.

CPerry1982 · 10-09-2006, 06:22 AM

Well, me and her are not all buddy-buddy like that, but she did ask me today if I was feeling better than I did friday I doubt she even knew what I was upset about I don't think anyone told her.

So how do I stop feeling the way I am now? my sister said that therapy doesn't work and that I should pull myself out of it.

bailey0979 · 10-09-2006, 07:53 AM

So get to be buddy buddy with her. i made some great friends at work...

I agree you should talk to a pro. Be careful what you tell your boss, they may use it to hold you back.

DOn't judge your life by someone elses standards, just becasue someone else may be married, have children, it 1) doesn't mean you should and 2) doesn't mean they are happy.

Half my class got married one year outof school maybe 1/4 are still together.

Find the right guy..he takes time to find but he'll show up when it's your time.

Make new friends ( key to meeting new single guys), just go in it for the friendship, someone to hang with..if married , with kids or preggers bums you out, try to find poele at work your age with out them,..they are there I know it.

If I had a car i'd drive to CT to see you. You seem like yu'd be fun to hang with ( no kids not married --27!!! see we do exist)

You are a good person, I hate to see you so down.

CPerry1982 · 10-09-2006, 09:47 PM

I don't know why I slip into such a deep depression, I know I shouldn't be upset or even thinking about the future at this point but it just makes me so sad to see exactly where my life is and I can't do anything about it.

CPerry1982 · 10-10-2006, 01:38 AM

Usually I can confide in my ex but he gets tired of hearing my problems, so there really isn't anyone I can confide in.

10-10-2006, 10:26 PM

First off hugs to you because I really do know how you are feeling!

Secondly at 24 your not too old and your not pass it.... you have years for children and to find that special person, for now you need to concentrate on getting yourself better and working towards your own health.

Time out needed, switch off from those around you (I know it's hard) but it's going to be the only way forward to get out of feeling as low as you are now.

Liloppy · 10-10-2006, 10:30 PM

Hun I wish I could hug you. It is not fun to be depressed, I have been taking Lexapro for almost 4 years. I hate to take it, but if I don't I get down and suicidal and all that jazz. Maybe it wouldn't hurt for you to try seeing a Dr. and getting something to help take the edge off? I am here if you need to talk.

thisfreakingsucks · 10-12-2006, 12:53 PM

i was going throught the same thing not too long ago
try writting
i did
my stuffs in Cysters poetry
idk maybe you can relate to it?

Ren · 10-12-2006, 05:29 PM

I was someone who refused to see a counceller feeling it couldn't help. I was lucky enough for work to give me three sessios for free, and its REALLY helped. If you do end up going to a counceller, try and go to someone who uses nueral programming. Its something that's really helped. To boil down to the basics, its changing the way you think about things.

I'm only a year younger than you and have the EXACT same fears. Ultiamtly there's nothing I can do to change it. I'm terrified of never having kids, but like others have said, we're only young and there is PLENTY of time for that. Dosen't mean we should sit down and wait for it, but its not like we're 'past it' or anything.

CPerry1982 · 10-13-2006, 05:42 AM

I think I'm past my depression now, I got back with my ex today and I've been very happy, the past 2 nights have not been fun, If most of you cysters recall from my post a LONG LONG time about about the guy I was seeing from NY, he really is a player so I was sad for a little while until I picked myself up and moved on with my life, I got back with my ex boyfriend and my depression has somewhat been better. It's only a matter of time.

RylandsMom · 10-13-2006, 05:52 AM

I don't know if I can offer anything here but a cyster above said it right. Life is not all about the marriage, the kids, the white picket fences. I know I can't really speak about the kids part but my relationship with paul is not all that picture perfect. There are days when I just want to go crazy and yell and scream at him and alot of the time even when I am with him I am depressed. I love him I truly do but there are days when it is really hard to wake up and say I love him. Some days I have to say I love paul because I choose to love him not because I want to love him. We have only been together for such a short time yes but we have known each other for so long that we can both say that we love each other and without a shadow of a doubt we will get into an argument and move on. I am sorry that your coworker has been so insensitive.