Trying to understand it all!

samuel 1:11 sista · 05-07-2009, 03:25 AM

I am new to this site and I am very grateful to have found such a place to discuss issues and ask questions. I really don't know where to start. I am so confused about everything that is going on. I was diagnosed with PCOS in Jan of 2008. I dazed and confused about the situation at first, then just brushed it off as if nothing was wrong. I decided to go back to the doctors this past month. Trying to deal and cope. All I do is cry. I pray and ask God for healing. I wonder why this has happened to me. I think about starting a family everyday. I hate myself for not being able to give my husband a child. Not getting much help or answers from my doctor. It is very overwhelming trying looking online and in books for answers. My head is spinning! I feel my faith slipping. I wonder if God will ever heal me. What to do? Just need some advise.

pinkkitty · 05-07-2009, 06:21 AM

I stuggle with this too, as a christian wife and not being to provide my husband with a child. I was diagonsed shortly after i was married in 2006. No doubt its the hardest thing we've ever endured. Mothers day is aproaching now, after loosing a baby its going to be hard. I've questioned God, my faith, his will and ran it over and over in my mind. i've learnt so many things the last 3 years, for it all i am a wiser and stonger person and christian and so is my husband.

I'm learning more now to live by Gods will in my life, and how the bible teaches us to be content in all situations. I recently i've learned that i need knee operations, i have a condition and will soon render it very hard to bend my knees or even walk. the opperation is to be done next month, praise god that im getting this done before children - can you imagine having young children and not being able to bend over or walk? God has his ways!

James 1 : 2 - 4 NIV
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

Dont test God by holding a lack of healing against him, instead you could pray that God strenghtens you, to learn the lessons that are to be learnt and to give you peace that transends all understanding.

Dont give up, i had to see a number of different doctors to find one that actually knows what pcos is and how to deal with it. PCOS is not closed book infertility, infact its classified as only subfertility, which via medical intervention its entirely possibible to fall pregnant. My ob/gyn said that pcos is easy compared to other fertility problems

best wishes, feel free to message me if you like

smcwhorter901 · 05-07-2009, 06:49 PM

Samuel 1:11 sista - I can only echo the reply above... I have also learned that is not always easy to let go.... We do get angry and want to question God, especially when we have done the best we can to love him, honor Him and please Him... and it's okay... As long as you cling to Him, you will heal your emotions daily and you will learn to let go - it is a process! Don't give up! Keep trusting that what God has said to you will come to pass.

pinkkitty - What you shared was a blessing for me! You are right... God sees things we can't see. His timing is perfect!