Ange75

I have got the worst case of the blues - I just had my 7th failed medicated cycle. I've been TTC for 5 years. I only have 1 other couple friend that is either not pregnant or have children already. I'm just completely devastated. I cry myself to sleep every night..I sit in my office all day with the door closed trying to keep from crying. This just SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS! I just don't understand..I'm so angry...and sad...and frustrated. I'm having to pay out of pocket for all the medications - which are like 2k a month - which I certainly don't have and my doctor told me he thinks I should only try one more cycle. I'm not ready to think its time to give up. It just can't be!! I'm just so sad. Thanks for listening.

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Ang
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Proud mommy to 2 beautiful boys!!

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding."

slhightower

Bless you heart. I hope that you are feeling a little better today. For months on end I cried all the time, at work, at home, at night, in the morning... always. I was just on big, poofy eyed, non pg, person!

It wasn't until I came here! I started reading everybody elses stories, posting on these boards... that I started to feel some relief. For me I just needed to be surrounded by people who understood me.

Most days I wake up wondering what I did to diserve this "punishment", but I will say that when I log on later in the day I start to feel better. Don't give up hope.... everyone here is a success story... we took control of our lives/bodies/health... some days are better than others of course.

Your not alone in your sadness!

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Stephanie
30 years old/ DH 27 -- Married 12/16/2000
Dx PCOS 09/2000 - Janumet 50/50

And 3 sons thru the MIRACLE of Adoption
Austin (7), Andrew (8), Anthony (9)

lilithann

I know exactly how you feel. When I had my miscarriage I thought I was being punished because I was thinking about abortion. I have to live with that everyday. One year later I found out I had PCOS. I felt the gods were punishing me because of the options I was considering. To this day, I still feel like I am being punished. However, I pray to the gods to appease them and I am working out, and diet. I have to take control of this. It was my decision and I have to live with it.


I will survive!
Lilith Ann

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Enough is Enough! I will survive! I will not let this disease win!
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