TTC & Feelin' Blue

ljlarsen · 01-30-2008, 04:50 AM

I can't be the only one!! Any of you out there?

sara7157 · 02-01-2008, 04:58 AM

yep.... me too. Currently it's winter ... stuck in the house b/c it's too cold to go outside blues... and eating chocolate.

ilovebailey · 02-02-2008, 06:15 PM

me three

ljlarsen · 02-02-2008, 09:34 PM

No kidding! Than add the Provera I'm taking on top of it...and i'm about to be pushed over the edge! (the preverbial edge...)

But serisouly as if IF wasn't enough, and then winter, and then crazy making drugs...I'm surprised more TTC aren't found curled up under their desks at work a babbling mess.

it's sure what i feel like some days.

justagirlgirlgirl · 02-02-2008, 09:42 PM

Yep, count me in. I just made a long post over on the TTC board about depression/anxiety meds and TTC. Grrrrr...ditto on curling up under the desk!

ljlarsen · 02-03-2008, 02:57 AM

Nicole -- Do you mind if I ask if you are currently taking any meds for anxiety? I stopped my Zoloft (which I took mostly for anxiety issues) when we got serious about TTC, and am really struggling. I'm thinking about going to talk to my reg. doc about what my options are. I've heard that some women continue to take Zoloft until the third trimester. I'm not sure what the right thing to do is...

justagirlgirlgirl · 02-03-2008, 11:47 AM

No, I am not taking anything right now (which is why I posted in the other forum). I had been on Prozac and weaned off of it to TTC, thinking, "Oh, I can go a few months without it". Of course, a few months stretched into over a year, and after adding the stress of having a miscarriage and a TTC, my symptoms have come back with a vengeance.

I talked with my OB about it, and she gave me Wellbutrin because she said that was the safest med for pregnancy and the only one she really felt comfortable with.

Except the problem is that Wellbutrin is NOT for people with anxiety and after taking it a few days, I turned into a basketcase. I had panic attacks, couldn't eat, etc. So I stopped taking it after just a few weeks, which stopped the severe anxiety.

But now I'm not taking anything, and I'm also really struggling. I know that taking the SSRIs aren't perfect for pregnancy, but I also know that anxiety can contribute to infertility and that it usually has to be in control to get pregnant. Also, my blood pressure has started getting higher (which happens to me when my anxiety is unchecked), so I know that isn't good, either.

I have been trying acupuncture, exercise, breathing exercises, etc but I still have symptoms. I really feel like I need to be back on some meds. But I am scared to go back to my OB because I know she isn't happy about the SSRI's, and I'm also worried that my regular doctor won't want to prescribe anything for me since I'm TTC without consulting the OB. Ugh...I don't know what to do, either!

ljlarsen · 02-03-2008, 04:37 PM

Nicole--

As frustrating as it all is, I have to say it is comforting to hear that someone else is in such a similar boat.

I totally had the same thought about going off the Zoloft...it will only be a couple of months, la la la....and now here we are 7 mos later. No BFP, and a slightly crazier me.

When I started seeing my OB she told me I should find what makes me happy. I wanted to choke her. Because I have found those things...I have the best DH ever, a great family, I love my job...and still there are mornings when I can't get out of bed for fear.

I need to exhaust some of the options that you already have. Acupuncture and exercise are a great idea.

Have you ever thought of something episodic like Lorazapam. Something that would help on especially bad days but that you wouldn't have to take for very long and could stop taking during time when you though you could be pregnant?

monaisttc · 02-03-2008, 06:00 PM

im very depressed. i cant even look at babies or pregnant ladies and cry. i am soo sad. its horriable. I should be happy that they are pregnant. and im not. i feel awful feeling this way

namo · 02-03-2008, 06:36 PM

I'm totally down about TTC. I feel like time is running out and that I am a failure. My DH turns 30 in May and that makes me feel even worse about not giving him a child. There are 2 newly pregnant girls at work which doesn't help!

justagirlgirlgirl · 02-03-2008, 07:24 PM

Monais and namo - I know how you feel! I am facing my 31st birthday this spring and I never dreamed it would take this long to TTC #1. And I can't help but be bitter and upset when everyone else is pregnant and takes it for granted. Of course, that doesn't help when you're already prone to depression and anxiety! Are either of you taking anything?

Lonnie - I know exactly what you're going through! I've just started the acupuncture, so I'll see how that goes, and I want to try to add in some massage/relaxtion therapy. Of course, it all costs a fortune! I cringe to think of all the money that I spend each month on these things, and all BFN's. I could have been paying off my debt with all of that!

monaisttc · 02-03-2008, 07:29 PM

im not taking anything for depression or anxiety. my husband wont allow it. he says that i will get addicted and blah blah. im just sooo annoyed with him and everyone around me. i wanted to just go and hide in a dark hole n just wallow in my misery

ilovebailey · 02-03-2008, 08:00 PM

Nicole- Is there any way you can talk to a psychiatrist? They really are the experts at this and may be more knowlegable and willing to prescribe than your OB. If I am recalling correctly, Wellbutrin works on different chemicals in your brain that Proxac so that may be why you felt so different.

Lonnie- Lorazepam may not be the best choice while you are ttc. That is a different type of drug and definitely not one to be on while pg. I'm not sure how long it stays in your system, but if you use it while ttc and then get pg, that may not be good. I'm on Lexapro 10mg. I was on Paxil 20mg but when I began ttc they switched me to Lexapro since Paxil is a no-no for pg. The dr said the lexapro half-life makes it very easy to discontinue if necessary if and when I get pg. You may want to consider that. This is a very trying process so I figured now is not the time for me to stop my antidepressant.

Monaisttc- Tell your husband that SSRIs (antidepressants) are not addictive. Benzos aka anti-anxiety meds like ativan, lorazepam, xanax- these are addictive if not dosed and used properly, same with sleeping pills. But SSRIs like Zoloft, Lexapro, Prozac, etc are NOT addicitve. I'm a therapist and work with people on all of these meds. You can be on many SSRIs while ttc and pg. Obviously it's not ideal, but in some cases it is the best option. For some women, it is better to take meds than to be depressed and anxious during the ttc and pg process. As stated above, stress can worsen infertility so do what you need to do to take care of yourself. Not to encourage dishonesty, but from a what-he-doesn't-know-won't-hurt-him perspective, do you really need to tell him? Just a thought.

aks226 · 02-03-2008, 09:36 PM

Add me to the list.

I was doing pretty well until just before Christmas when I was sure I was pregnant. It was the first time I had let myself think my symptoms could possibly pregnancy, but my blood work showed otherwise.

My husband, not thinking clearly I would assume, called me the day I got the news to tell me, "You're not pregnant, but guess who is, Jamie Spears!" Where is the justice...

whiteanabe · 02-04-2008, 02:38 AM

Hi.
I am new to the site and am really just looking for someone to give me some hope. My husband and I have been married for three years, trying to get pregnant for over a year and I am really concerned I may not be able to get pregnant ever. Does anyone have any suggestions On how to regulate my body. It would be much appreciated.