Hi I'm sure many of you will think "what the hell is she moaning for" but i just feel really confussed. I don't normally consider myself as someone who is depressed and althought when dx and now dealing with PCOS I feel a little down at times It is only recently I have thought how horrible I feel.
I do feel like staying in bed, but I make myself get up, I'm not that bad as I won't go to work or anything but when I am around people I feel that it is an effort for me to be bothered with them somethimes. I seem to moan at my boyfriend for little things, I think I expect him to read my mind and know when I am in need of a hug.
He isn't the easyest person to talk to about emotional things although he is great in other ways, sometimes I just feel alone even though we live in the same house. I keep thinking how great it will be when we have a baby, but then I can't think like that becuse it may never arrive.
I am trying to loose weight as I am over 200lbs and I am trying to stay positive and exercise although I just can't become motivated, becuse I feel that I am in a mad circle because I feel ashamed to got to the gym because of my weight but then if I don't go I'll never loose the weight.
I feel everyone looks at me as the stable, reliable one who everyone can dump their crap on I don't normally mind but I just feel no-one will take my feelings seriously If I let them know how I feel, I don't have any siblings and my best, best friend has just started on anti-depressants which I have been supporting her through so I just felt I had no-one else to tell all this to.
Im sorry to go on and i'm sure I might feel better in a day or so but I just felt like i was going to burst!
Does anyone else just feel like this sometimes maybe just a few days at a time, how do you know if you need help? Is it just that these feelings won't go, if they go does this mean I am not depressed? Do you think this is just a bit of depression linked with PCOS which will pass on it's own? On the surface I suppose I hide these feelings well, does anyone else do this. Please give me some feedback I just don't know what to think.
Sorry again to go on, I know it's a long one. Thank you
Clare xx
__________________ Me age 29
Dbf 32
PCOS diagnosed 2002
ttc #1
Met & Prenatal Vits
12 rounds of clomid - Only O'd twice
Ovarian Drilling Dec 2004
Started IVF 13.06.07
Last edited by clarabell55; 06-12-2003 at 01:35 PM.
Clare,
I just want to give you a big {{HUG!}} and tell you that many of us feel exactly the same way! There's no need to excuse yourself for venting these feelings, because this is just the place for it. Hormone fluctuations are probably to blame for the short spells that we have, and I think we just have to wait for them to pass. One thing that has really helped me feel these less often is to make progress with my health. Knowing that I am getting better is a real upper.
I wish you the best,
Sheri
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Thank you for taking time to read my post, I'm sure your right this will probably pass in a few days, prob just hormonal. Its just nice to know there are people out there who understand exactly what I am feeling no-one I know has PCOS and I think people just think of it as a hicup with TTC, well i think they do where I come from anyway, they don't realise all the other things which come along with it.
Thanks again
Clare xx
__________________ Me age 29
Dbf 32
PCOS diagnosed 2002
ttc #1
Met & Prenatal Vits
12 rounds of clomid - Only O'd twice
Ovarian Drilling Dec 2004
Started IVF 13.06.07
I can really relate to this posting... and it brings up a question: PCOS women know they have erratic hormones, but are they erratic on a day-to-day basis (thus could account for crazy mood swings), or is it more gradual, cycle type? Is that why menopausal women get the reputation for being volatile, because of daily hormone changes? In my mind, I have always equated mood swings with cycle changes, and not been able to account for feeling fine one day and down the next...thoughts or info please!
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Married, adult daughter and son, ages 23 & 21
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Hi, hope by the time you read this you are feeling better. If your feelings of sadness and withdrawn moods last 2 weeks or more, you might want to visit with your physician or therapist. Everyone goes through short term depression, but when it lasts a long time, it is a sign that you need some help. Your post sounds as though you are on the right track. You are understanding what is happening. Good for you. Let us know how you're doing. Hugs, Lendi
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