Update/Confession

ladynred1920 · 02-04-2007, 07:07 AM

Hey everyone!

Okay, I made a doctors appointment for 15 FEB 2007. All the information that I pull up with my symptoms points to endometriosis. When I called the doctors office it didn't seem like it was too much concern with them as I have already been seeing this doctor for a little over a year for this brown discharge that I have been having for about the past 5 years! Needless to say, I am on Megestrol (Progesterone drug to make me stop having a period) and now he thinks that the reason why I started having this brown discharge again is because my lining is too thin again so he put me on Premarin (estrogen) for 14 days.

All is fine and hunky doory, right? No. Even though I have been on this Megestrol since Aug 2006 and I have not had a regular period, that doesn't mean that the brown discharge has stopped. At first it was only spotting for the first few months. Spotting that would last several days at a time. Now in the last month I have had 2 of the brown discharges averaging about 5 days or so (I am still in the middle of one of them).

One of my questions is, if this Megestrol has made it so I don't have periods, where does the blood go? Does this drug make me stop producing eggs and that is why I am not bleeding? My doctor tells me that this brown discharge is old blood, but if I am not having a "normal" period at all, then where is this old blood coming from?!?!?

Confession: I know I should have told the doctor this a long time ago. It hurts when I have sex with my husband. I noticed it before but since I was bleeding all the time and I wore pads, I thought it was just from wearing the pads all the time and my vagina was just getting rubbed raw by them. Within the last 2 months I switched to tampons when I am doing the spotting or this brown discharge to see if that made a difference. Nope it didn't. I know I should have told my doc regardless if I thought it was the pads rubbing me raw or not. (Now when I was using the pads, it was quite common for me to bleed 25 or so days out of the month, whether it be the brown discharge or the "normal" period.) I know when I see the doc on the 15th, this is something I am going to have to tell him. Not that I really want to because I find it a little embarrassing to talk about. But I know that I have to.

I also know that my mental health finally taking a toll. The other morning I just felt like I couldn't do this anymore. I felt like having a total mental breakdown. I just got overwhelmed and didn't know what to do or think, about anything. It lasted for almost 24 hours. I don't want to be medicated for it. I would rather have some alternative method. It does not happen often, feeling like I am going to have a mental breakdown, but when I do, I feel totally out of control, and I don't like that. Again, this is something that I am going to have to discuss with my doctor.

Thank you all for listening.

Fuzzy Bear · 02-04-2007, 12:26 PM

It's rough to have something that is embarrassing to talk about with your doctor.
(That's one reason I've switched to a female doctor. I feel like I'm confiding to someone who will actually know what I'm talking about, rather than my previous male doctors that used to wave so much away with "it's normal for a woman".)

I guess what I'd do in your situation is write the things you want to discuss in a note. I usually use point-form because it's more to remind me, but in a case where I'm uncomfortable talking about it, maybe you could make what you feel as clear as possible in writing and along with mentioning that it makes you uncomfortable to discuss so you thought this would ensure everything was said. If you write it as clear as you can, maybe he won't have to ask you much else and can make his determination about it with what you've written. If he's a good doctor, he should take your admittance to being uncomfortable and try to make anything about that subject as short as possible to lessen your discomfort, but still make sure he has covered everything.
I always write everything down, and more often than not I'll hand the note to my doctor so they can choose what order they want to go over it with me.
HTH
Good Luck at your appt.

Fuzzy Bear