My bleeding seems to have stopped. The doctor didn't mention me coming in for another test - so I plan to take an HPT just to make sure my hcg is at least low enough to register as negative.
Today was the first day I've truly cried over this. I was beginning to wonder if I ever would. Right now I hold out hope that I will be pg soon and that I will not suffer another mc - at least not anytime soon. I'm not sure where this is coming from...but no matter how I think of the mc and why it happened - I feel confident that it won't again.
Last night I even had a dream I was 4 mos. pg and ds was still in his infant carrier. I doubt that could happen at this point - but I hope it was a sign that the pg will happen soon. In some ways I feel bad for feeling hopeful - but I know that I need to move on - and by moving on I am in no way forgetting the baby I have lost.
Thank you all for being there and answering my questions.
Also, with both my chemical pregnancies (very early losses, right after getting + HPTs), I had "normal" ovulatory cycles immediately - in fact, just like when I have a "regular" AF, I started seeing sticky CM at the end of the bleeding, which changed to more fertile CM eventually. Hope this isn't TMI, I'm just trying to tell you what you might be able to expect.
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Oh Sun- I am so sorry. I dont know how far along you were but I can identify that pain right now. I am going through my second m/c... My first was just last month and it is really hard on me and DH. My Betas only got up to 14 or so before dropping and I am yet to start bleeding. The waiting is the worst. My FRER said BFN so anyday now the reality will set in. If you ever need to talk, please IM or email me. My heart goes out to you.
((HUGS))
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11/11/09 m/c. We lost another one!! DAMN IT! To view links or images in signatures your post count must be 0 or greater. You currently have 0 posts.
November 2009: Trying one last cycle on Tamoxifen before we throw the towel in.
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"I prayed for this child, and the Lord granted me what I asked of him." I Samuel 1:27
You sound like you are doing really well, crying included. I think acknowledging the loss in your heart is the first step to going forward with your life, whatever that involves. And I really hope that your dream was a good sign for you all!
__________________ Metformin 1500mg, Yasmin, managing IR/pcos with lower carbs
First pregnancy ended at 23 weeks due to incompetent cervix.
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Second loss March 9, 2004 at five weeks
Third pregnancy, Cerclage at 13w
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Fourth pregnancy, Cerclage at 13w
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((Sun)). I'm so sorry. Please lean on us whenever you need to!
__________________ Dominici was born May 2006!
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Miracle Baby Boy Rivelino, born too early to live on October 6, 2004 at 24 weeks and 6 days. Never to be forgotten, always to be remembered, forever my source of inspiration.
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