The other day I was coming out of my parents' house and we see me and my fiance's friend Lauren, who lives across the street from my parents. She is our friend from our old adoption class, with my first agency. I had thought she had put her adoption process on hold due to a relationship breakup, but I see her carrying a baby stroller to the car and I'm like, OMG!!! Lauren has a baby over there!!!- "Lauren, do you have a BABY over there?" and she DOES!
I had not seen her in a while ...so, it turns out she had restarted her process and has had her baby boy William for a while, I think he is like 5 months and he's getting teeth already and I got to hold him and he likes me and he is so awesome. He was listed as biracial but seems quite Caucasian so perhaps the birthmom meant biracial with Hispanic. Anyhow, he had drug withdrawal troubles and shakes at first but now seems great and healthy, Lauren was telling me. An absolute cutie pie. I am so jealous! They have one more court date to go.
She works for another college in the area and was like, "Hey, you know where they are hiring admissions people? Chatham College!" (but that's not where she works) and I said, "yeah, I just applied to them for like the 7th time the other week and they denied me AGAIN... they never even bother to call me..."
She didn't realize I am going for older child adoption not for a baby, ...I mean, I like babies so much but not 24/7, not right now... and I told her how I'm sort of in a holding pattern with my second agency, not turned down but not going full force forward either due to their feelings about my income. She says she is going to check around for more info for me from her new agency, to maybe see why they are being so persnickety with me over money and if I might have other options to try. (But I'm hesitant to go to a THIRD agency...)
Also I was at a friend's birthday party yesterday and got to talk to another adoptive mom and SHE wants to investigate options for me too; she's going to ask her caseworker some questions for me (even though her agency is for adopting babies and costs too much money for me).
So now I have some local people snooping around for alternative options for me. And I'm going to update my income info, physical check up and TB test this Monday, and then see what my caseworker says.
I'm just so happy for Lauren and annoyed with my own station in life right now. It ticks me off that money has prevented so much of my life from happening the way I wanted... I have "money worry fatigue" or something...
When I hear from caseworker again I'll let you folks know.
vague update on my adoption thoughts and process 
I really really hate money right now I am sorry it has caused you so much grief ...
