sirrahved

Today I'm NOT dealing well with my loss. I want my baby back! I want a reason as to why I have to go through this... after 4 1/2 years of trying, giving up... then getting pregnant? Only to lose the baby! Why? WHY!?

My pastor says there are no answers to these questions. I can't accept that. There has to be a reason why I was cast this lot!

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Me: (Devon) 25 DH: (Jason) 27
Married:6/14/03
TTC since: September '03
Dx:2/9/06
Surprise! BFP 3/20/08
No heartbeat found 5/16/08
miscarried on 5/27/08
Currently taking Metformin, Prenatals, Citalopram, Lunesta, Lyrica, and Labetalol

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AnotherDreamer

(*hugs*)

There's really nothing I can really to say to make it any better, much as I'd like to, all I can do is say that I hear you, I know what you mean.

I've come to realize this over the years... I know you don't want to hear this... but I'm right here with you. I miss my baby too.
I don't think there are any answers, I mean... life's just not fair.
As much as we want it to be... it's not.

It wasn't because of who you are, and you didn't deserve it (No one deserves to lose their baby.) It just happened.

Sometimes we cuss the universe out for giving us this hand... but once we get it off our chest we have to make a decision.
Move forward or give up.

I'm so sorry this is hitting you so hard right now.
It's been hitting me hard off and on since I lost my miracle too.
Please don't give up, but rather keep going.

Like my signature says; If you're going through hell, keep going.
I'm so sorry...

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SandV

I feel your pain. My deepest empathy to you. I too am still dealing with loss after trying to conceive. It has been 6 weeks since I had to have my left tube and fetus removed.
I wish there were some magic words I could say to make you feel better. The only thing I can remind myself is that things do happen for a reason. I wish you all the best. My heart goes out to you at this time.
(((HUG!)))

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I (6/2/06)

DSS born 5/30/04


HSG 8/26/08 - right fimbria congested with hydrosalpinx
Ectopic PG 4/23/08 (8 wks)
Salpingectomy 4/23/08 (left)
Dx PCOS 1995

"Yesterday is history; tomorrow is a mystery; today is a gift. That is why its called the present."


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lindseymarie

((HUGS)) Like everyone else, I can't answer your question but I can certainly empathize. It seems so cruel to try so long to get your BFP and then have it taken away so quickly. It is definately not fair and something that I am totally struggling with too!

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BFP on May 31/08

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m/c June 4/08

Sep 25,08 - 1st cycle using Femara/trigger/iui



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Pebbles74

((hugs))) I feel the same exact way. i was trying for 4 1/2 years as well and finally got my dream come true and in a flash it was gone. I am trying to look ahead to the next cycle but my body does not want to let me. We were in the same thread I lost mine at 7w 2days.

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M/C 04/08/08 7wks 2d
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FET #1-07/22/08-2 embies x-ferred. 08/02/08- BFP!!
M/C #2 08/11/08 5wks 2d


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SheriKCMO

The roller coaster of grief really hits us when we least expect. Some days are just hard to get through, and I hope today was better than yesterday. There are still some bad ones after four years. It really stinks. Thank goodness that the bad days are much fewer and further between as time goes on, and we find other ways to cope. I am really sorry you're hurting and wish you all the best as you go forward! (((Hugs)))

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Sheri:36 Hubby:36
Metformin 1500mg since 10/02, Yasmin since 4/06, managing IR/pcos with lower carbs

First pregnancy ended at 23 weeks due to incompetent cervix.

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Mary Catherine will be in our hearts forever, November 28, 2003.
Second loss March 9, 2004 at five weeks

Third pregnancy, Cerclage 8/13-1/19

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Duncan 2/11/05, 9lb 3oz
Fourth pregnancy, Cerclage 8/26-1/26

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Ruby 2/27/06, 9lbs

Time to lose this weight!