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06-05-2008, 07:09 PM
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| | mourning my angel
Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: Scottsbluff, NE
Posts: 290
My Mood: Points: 6,038.36 Bank: 11,435.46 Total Points: 17,473.82 | *vent* Today I'm NOT dealing well with my loss. I want my baby back! I want a reason as to why I have to go through this... after 4 1/2 years of trying, giving up... then getting pregnant? Only to lose the baby! Why? WHY!?
My pastor says there are no answers to these questions. I can't accept that. There has to be a reason why I was cast this lot!
__________________ Me: (Devon) 25 DH: (Jason) 27
Married:6/14/03
TTC since: September '03
Dx:2/9/06
Surprise! BFP 3/20/08
No heartbeat found 5/16/08
miscarried on 5/27/08
Currently taking Metformin, Prenatals, Citalopram, Lunesta, Lyrica, and Labetalol To view links or images in signatures your post count must be 10 or greater. You currently have 0 posts. |
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06-05-2008, 07:15 PM
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| | Sanity Challenged
Join Date: Feb 2008 Location: My house ;)
Posts: 758
Points: 16,733.88 Bank: 0.00 Total Points: 16,733.88 | (*hugs*)
There's really nothing I can really to say to make it any better, much as I'd like to, all I can do is say that I hear you, I know what you mean.
I've come to realize this over the years... I know you don't want to hear this... but I'm right here with you. I miss my baby too.
I don't think there are any answers, I mean... life's just not fair.
As much as we want it to be... it's not.
It wasn't because of who you are, and you didn't deserve it (No one deserves to lose their baby.) It just happened.
Sometimes we cuss the universe out for giving us this hand... but once we get it off our chest we have to make a decision.
Move forward or give up.
I'm so sorry this is hitting you so hard right now.
It's been hitting me hard off and on since I lost my miracle too.
Please don't give up, but rather keep going.
Like my signature says; If you're going through hell, keep going.
I'm so sorry...
__________________ Me 23 To view links or images in signatures your post count must be 10 or greater. You currently have 0 posts. DH 23 May 4, 2008: Miscarriage @ 5 weeks To view links or images in signatures your post count must be 10 or greater. You currently have 0 posts.
Prenatal, 81mg Aspirin
Clomid 50mg, 100mg = P4's 1. No Ov!
100mg= P4 8.1 BFN
150mg= ??? "If you're going through hell, keep going,"
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06-05-2008, 07:19 PM
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| | Caribbean Cysters
Join Date: May 2008 Location: St Lucia by way of New Jersey
Posts: 693
My Mood: Points: 15,963.38 Bank: 0.00 Total Points: 15,963.38 | I feel your pain. My deepest empathy to you. I too am still dealing with loss after trying to conceive. It has been 6 weeks since I had to have my left tube and fetus removed.
I wish there were some magic words I could say to make you feel better. The only thing I can remind myself is that things do happen for a reason. I wish you all the best. My heart goes out to you at this time.
(((HUG!)))
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DSS born 5/30/04
HSG 8/26/08 - right fimbria congested with hydrosalpinx
Ectopic PG 4/23/08 (8 wks)
Salpingectomy 4/23/08 (left)
Dx PCOS 1995 "Yesterday is history; tomorrow is a mystery; today is a gift. That is why its called the present." To view links or images in signatures your post count must be 10 or greater. You currently have 0 posts. |
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06-05-2008, 07:46 PM
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| | Registered User
Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: Ontario, Canada
Posts: 231
Points: 4,997.78 Bank: 0.00 Total Points: 4,997.78 | ((HUGS)) Like everyone else, I can't answer your question but I can certainly empathize. It seems so cruel to try so long to get your BFP and then have it taken away so quickly. It is definately not fair and something that I am totally struggling with too!
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06-06-2008, 12:01 AM
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| | Hoping 4 a little miracle
Join Date: May 2006 Location: CT
Posts: 1,012
My Mood: Points: 7,963.72 Bank: 118,862,160.12 Total Points: 118,870,123.84 | ((hugs))) I feel the same exact way. i was trying for 4 1/2 years as well and finally got my dream come true and in a flash it was gone. I am trying to look ahead to the next cycle but my body does not want to let me. We were in the same thread I lost mine at 7w 2days.
__________________ Me 33 DH 35 Pre-Nats, Gluco XR 2000mg, Labetalol 200mg PCOS DX 2006 Hashimoto's DX 2006 09/06-02/07 5 Failed rounds Clomid did not O To view links or images in signatures your post count must be 10 or greater. You currently have 0 posts.
04/29/07- 09/25/07- 4 IUI's all Bust To view links or images in signatures your post count must be 10 or greater. You currently have 0 posts.
IVF #1 03/02/08 ret 21 eggs, 9 embies, x-fer 03/05/08 ......OMG BFP!! 03/16/08 M/C 04/08/08 7wks 2d To view links or images in signatures your post count must be 10 or greater. You currently have 0 posts. FET #1-07/22/08-2 embies x-ferred. 08/02/08- BFP!! M/C #2 08/11/08 5wks 2d To view links or images in signatures your post count must be 10 or greater. You currently have 0 posts. To view links or images in signatures your post count must be 10 or greater. You currently have 0 posts. |
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06-06-2008, 11:08 PM
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| | Sad and Happy Mom
Join Date: Mar 2003 Location: Kansas City, MO Looking for local buddies!
Posts: 5,911
Points: 88,045.82 Bank: 0.00 Total Points: 88,045.82 | The roller coaster of grief really hits us when we least expect. Some days are just hard to get through, and I hope today was better than yesterday. There are still some bad ones after four years. It really stinks. Thank goodness that the bad days are much fewer and further between as time goes on, and we find other ways to cope. I am really sorry you're hurting and wish you all the best as you go forward! (((Hugs)))
__________________ Sheri:36 Hubby:36
Metformin 1500mg since 10/02, Yasmin since 4/06, managing IR/pcos with lower carbs
First pregnancy ended at 23 weeks due to incompetent cervix. To view links or images in signatures your post count must be 10 or greater. You currently have 0 posts. Mary Catherine will be in our hearts forever, November 28, 2003.
Second loss March 9, 2004 at five weeks
Third pregnancy, Cerclage 8/13-1/19 To view links or images in signatures your post count must be 10 or greater. You currently have 0 posts. Duncan 2/11/05, 9lb 3oz
Fourth pregnancy, Cerclage 8/26-1/26 To view links or images in signatures your post count must be 10 or greater. You currently have 0 posts. Ruby 2/27/06, 9lbs
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