I seem to have moved from ttc to pregnancy to this board very quickly - it is hard to sink in really.
I wanted to say hello and tell you my story if you don't mind.
last week I thought I was 9 weeks pregnant and then I had some blood, just some spotting but we went to hospital. A scan showed a sac at about 5 weeks (6mm) dvelopment. My hcg levels were 45,000 which was high even for 9 weeks. They feared ectopic but as i was in no pain, as well as my cervix being tightly closed they sent me home with the slight hope dates were just wrong. Two days later levels were 42,000. two days after that 36, 000. Tomorrow i will get the latest and my next scan is booked for the 7th Octber. They have told me it looked like a failed pregnancy and i should expect to miscarry. At the moment I have brown spotting but no pain. I want this to all be over soon but i worry at my high levels. Has anyone else had something simular? Will it happen naturally or will I need a d&c? The hospital have no answers at the moment, i guess we may never have them.
sorry for rambling, this is so awful isn't it, I wouldn't wish this on anyone and life seems so cruel for putting us all through it.
Thanks for listening - I will let you know how I get on
take care
emma x
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Emma,
I am so sorry about this loss. Often the hcg level needs to drop quite a bit before the body will let go naturally. This might lead a doctor to advise a D&C, but it is always your choice. It does accelerate the process if that is what you want. The waiting and not knowing are just awful. It is rare around here for someone to know a solid reason for a first trimester loss, and even for any other loss. I wish you the best. Please take time to simply reflect and heal.
(((Hugs)))
Sheri
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Emma I'm so sorry for your loss. It really isn't fair. No one should have to lose a baby. Wishing you peace, and a clear path.
Aviva
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I was at only 6 weeks when I told I was going to miscarry but it took almost 2 months for my beta to get back to normal and the miscarriage to be over. My beta even continued climbing even though it was an unviable pregnancy. During this time I found it really hard to move on, my RE was very uncompasionate when I questioned alternatives to a natural miscarriage. It tore me up walking around knowing there was nothing I could do. Finally I was given a drug to help speed up the process, I passed the sac and beta begin to drop. This was a big mark for me I just wanted to move on. I have since had a few cycles since my miscarriage but I don't think I will ever forget the torture that I endured during that time. I am sorry I can't be of more help. If you need someone to talk to pm me.
waiting to miscarry 
