Beckers

hello all... i havent posted on here in ages-- i thought i was doing okay, but i really am not. here is the story- i am in graduate school and will be graduating in may. we have our oral comprehensive test this coming week-- over 6 years of education!! we are grilled for 45 minutes and then we are told are destiny. I was doing ok, but I am beginning to flip out. I have been gathering my notes and studying since about oct. of last year. I just have too much other stuff going on-- my PCOS is out of control. I have been on and off my meds because i had wrist surgery in dec and i just havent been consistent since then. i work 20 hours a week, have 3 classes, have a client, 2 practicum sites (go for 20 hours a week) and then on top of it all i have to deal with my stupid family. they dont understand the magnitude of what i am going through right now--- they are so mean to me-- expect me to do laundry and be here for dinner when i am using all of my free time to study! and then my dad has the nerve to point out that I am broken out all over my face-- like i havent noticed!!! it is called stress! they keep saying "you will do fine, you have studied so much"-- but i have this feeling in the pit of my stomach that I will not do fine.... i am just all depressed about it and it doesnt help the studying when i am feeling like this.. i didnt know where else to turn.... it is all caving in on me again and i am getting that feeling i want to just turn the steering wheel of my car while on the highway and hope i get hit......................... thanks for listening....

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Maddy

Hello there

My, no wonder you feel down. You are doing far too much. Is there anything you can put on hold temporarily? Difficult I know.

Also, have you spoken to your doctor. There maybe something you can take temporarily to help you through until you sit your oral. I bought some Kalms, when I was going through a stressful time, natural calming remedy from the Healthstore.

I think maybe you need something to help you through for a little while and in the meantime if there is anything you can put on the backburner, do it. And when your family make such awful comments, mentally put them on the backburner. Just think you can tell them what you think and deal with them after you have completed your oral examination! Come here and rant about them instead!!! Or write a letter to them then throw it away, that way it is out of your head - I also read an article once that said a good idea is to write whatever horrible thing someone says to you on a piece of paper and then burn it! Somehow makes you feel better!

I hope you are feeling better soon

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Lendi

First I want to say congratualations on your upcoming graduation. That is terrific. You should feel very proud of yourself. You do have a lot going on right now. A lot of stress, and it sounds like, although well meaning, your family isn't helping a lot. Although this combined would be very overwhelming. Possibly anxiety attacks?? You might visit with your Dr. about this, and try some relaxing techniques as well. I agree that if you could maybe take out a loan or something and not work for a few months. Find some time for yourself. Don't forget you much have "me" time too. All the studying in the world won't do you any good if you wear yourself down too far. It sounds as though you are very grounded and have covered all of your bases as far as your education goes. Again, congrats. I know you'll go far. Take care of yourself. Let us know if we can help. Hugs, Lendi

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CTCyster

Beckers,
Congrats on your upcoming graduation- sounds like you have a lot on your plate- but look how at how much you have already accomplished!

I will give you the cool perspective of a stranger- if you really have been diligently studying since October- then you've most likely got nothing to worry about. You've worked hard to get to this point- seems like you're kind of psyching yourself out.

Take a moment to step back and take a breath and get a fresh perspective- I just know all that studying will pay off

Good Luck cyster!!

*Aimee*

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