I got a call from my OB's office today that I'm scheduled for pre-surgical testing on Monday. The D&C is next Wednesday. I'm really just sad and scared about this. After all the trauma of losing my son, the last thing I wanted was someone messing with my parts even more. But I haven't had a period, only spotting, and there is no hormonal reason why I have not.
I started reading about the procedure and I started crying. I know it is minor and no big deal, but I guess it just hits a painful spot in my heart. Not only does my womb not have a baby, it has stuff in it that should not be there.
Why couldn't my body cooperate... just this once???
I should have had it done right after Gabriel was born, but after watching my son die, I just did not want to leave the room for more procedures. Now they're going to forcably dilate my incompetent cervix and I just don't like this idea!!! WAAAAAAHHH..
*sigh*
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I'm so sorry {{{{HUGS}}}} I know the thought of having the D&C is completely frightening but if it heals you more, it will be better (that might not be something you want to hear though...). I completely understanding about not having a baby & having stuff in there that shouldn't be. I've been through that many times. Only 1 time did I need a D&C b/c if not, I would have gotten an infection & it would have made it worse.
Please let me know if you have any questions since I've been through it before...
{{{{HUGS}}}}
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Hugs hugs hugs hugs. I am so sorry that you're going through this. I hope that the testing goes well and that you are able to get through this! Hugs hugs!!! Lots of hugs!
I'm sorry you have to go through this. I've had a D&C as well. It went much better than I expected it to. If you'd like to have more details on what to expect, send me a PM with your email address and I'll tell you all about it.
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I just wanted to send you big hugs. I too have had a D&C. It really wasn't that bad. My emotions were a wreck of course. The emotional part was much worse than the actual surgery. I even had a panic attack in the recovery room. They had to give me a shot of Xanex and give me a rx to take home. My point is, if you need something for you emotions, don't be afaid to ask them for it. It does make things much easier.
Adrianne (((((((((huge hugs))))))))))
I'm sorry that you have to go through yet something else. You will make it through this. We are all here for you!!!!!!!
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You've already been through so much, and now your body won't cooperate (I know the feeling). Please ask for something for your nerves if you need it. It will be over before you know it!
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Thanks so much for all of your well-wishes, good thoughts and prayers! I am very blessed. It really does help to know that people are thinking positively about me.
This whole thing just really sent me into sadness again. I've wanted to cry all day. I mean, I know my son is gone and it doesn't matter what any Dr. does to my uterus, he's not coming back. It's just another harsh reminder. I really truly just want to be left alone.
And I know that the Provera I am on is NOT helping my moods....
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I hear ya about the Provera. I've been in a crying mood all day long too @ the thought that I'm actually taking the Provera when I should have a baby in my arms & be pg right now... Now I have to take it for a lap/hysteroscopy to figure out what's wrong w/ my already messed up body
{{{{HUGS}}}} I'm right there w/ ya on the Provera crying...
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Adrianne,
I hope it's over before you know it and you're on the way to good health, getting ready for another try for a baby. I agree that you should ask for something to calm your nerves for that day... is DH going with you? You're in this stuff together, so I would ask him if I were you. I'm very sorry it has come to this.
Hugs!
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Adrianne...i just wanted to wish you well and say we're all here for you. I've never had a d&c but i have had a uterine infection...and you DONT want that believe me...
i just wish things werent so hard for you right now...take care...
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angeleyes, my doctor called me this evening (yes, he is awesome!) and said that since I won't finish the course of provera before the d&C that I don't need to take it. YAY! He said that I also had the option putting off the d&c and finishing the provera and seeing if that would work. But I decided that I am better off with the D&C, especially since I'm convinced that the provera alone would not do the job. Besides, I'm happy to not have to take the provera. Something about it just fills me with dread.
All of my bloodwork and the ultrasound came back completely normal. So, I'm thinking that the only reason why I haven't had a period is something is still hanging around in there. I had some clearish chunk of *something* come out of me a few days ago. Doc thinks that is a good indication that I need the d&c.
So.... I'm feeling a lot better about all of this now.
Sheri, not only is my DH coming with me, my mom is driving two hours and taking a vacation day from work to be with me. I'm really blessed.
Thanks to all of you who suggested "something for my nerves." I will definitely ask if I feel I need it. I remember that when I had my gall bladder out, they didn't even ask... they gave me a shot of valium right off the bat. It was funny because the anesthesiologist finished his conversation with me and on his way out of the room, he said to the nurse "okay, you can give her the valium now." Before I could even say "huh?" the needle was in my IV. It was a good thing, because when I think about what I remember from being wheeled into the OR and being strapped down, I think I would have freaked.
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Well, I guess I'm going for a D&C 
I'm sorry! 
