My cousin called me this weeknd, and yay for her, she's expecting...
My other cousin is also expecting.
DH's niece in law......expecting...
one of my good friends.....expecting......
and yet another that I found out about this morning.
And here I am, almost a year to the day that I miscarried....bawling like a baby last night. DH wants no more, and can't begin to know what I'm feeling............
And I don't want to be down for THEM because I am happy for them........but I'm pissed about me.
I reallllllly hate this........it is not getting easier.
I will have good days, and then BAM, something will trigger the flood gates.
I don't want to talk to people, I want to go home and go to bed, but I don't have any leave...so I"m stuck.....here, dealing with people, who want things........and I just want to tell 'em all to go to hell. is that normal??
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I started a new job in December, and I was so depressed over the holidays and through my due date (January 20), that I wanted to smack people when they came to me with stupid little crises. It just seems like there is so much else that is so much more important, and I feel like most people don't get it - they're all about the meaningless crap.
So, you're not alone!
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You sound completely normal to me!! We will probably always have some days like this, and when anniversaries come around, it really stirs things up! It is especially bad when we have hormonal imbalances to deal with and are not able to have another child for whatever reason. I hope tomorrow is a lot better!!!
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Yup, I agree. You sound totally normal to me. I am usually very social... the type that feels completely depressed when I don't have human contact. Very often, I feel like telling the world to go to hell lately. Sometimes I just want to stay home and stare at the walls.
Speaking of triggers, last week a coworker's wife went into labor. There was a note on our whiteboard saying that said coworker was at THE HOSPITAL with his wife. I put the hospital in caps because it was the hospital I spent a week at in November before my son was born. I felt like I had been kicked in the stomach.
So, you're completely normal. I hope that soon, you will have many more good days than bad days.
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I went to pick up DH's son on Friday night (the same day I found out a year ago that I was miscarrying) and had the *pleasure* of seeing his ex, as big as a house, 7 months pregnant. I felt like I'd had the wind knocked out of me.
When we got home, I told DH.........I just hate seeing her pregnant.
and he says "Why, because of your thing?"
THING? ok then.
Sometimes I wonder how they get by on three brain cells.
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Your thing? I guess we need to rename this forum. How about your broken heart? How about Our lost little one? How about because I haven't thought enough about having another child and talked seriously with you about your feelings? I can think of a thousand things he could have said instead of that. You should tell him how the two of you need to support each other, even when it's hard for one to understand the other's feelings. Geeeeeeeeez!!!
I totally agree on the three brain cell issue. None of the three cells is for aiming properly at the toilet bowl, either! How do these beings survive?
Have a better day, sweetie.
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Thank you Sheri. Sometimes I just don't think they realize ..... and I'm betting he didn't MEAN it in that way but....
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Sorry...I've been lurking and I just had to put my 2 cents in here...
My husband made a comment to me about "getting over" my m/c. Once I was calm enough to be my normal vicious self, I explained to him that it was HIS child too that was lost!
I think sometimes they're just not connecting the synapses ...... and they say the wrong things........not knowing what they SHOULD say....
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what a crappppppy day 
