What is wrong with ME!!!!!!

morebabytearsfromheaven · 11-10-2002, 09:14 PM

I have been diagnosed as having Type 2 diabetes for almost 2 years now. Something must really be wrong with me because even though I know I need to keep up on it I dont. I have friends that have died, lost limbs ect but I dont do anything about it. It scares me dont get me wrong because I think about it all the time but I come up with all reasons to ignore it anyways. My dh thinks it is deppression because I cant control not having a baby and this way I can control not taking care of myself. I am on meds for depression but it dont help. I need help but dont have any ideas what to do now. Also the once in a blue moon when I check my sugar ( about every 3 months) I get scared to check and see where my levels are for fear it will be very high. Whenever I ask people for suggestions they chew me out. I dont need this I just need some help understanding ME.

DianaG · 11-11-2002, 12:30 PM

Oh Hon (((((hugs))))) I am so sorry you are feeling the way that you are. I am not going to chew you out because it sounds like you already know what you should be doing and why.

Along with diabetes often comes depression and when you put that with infertility it is a horrible experience. Have you told your doctor your depression medicine is not working? My sister had to try three different types before finding one that worked for her. They each affect you differently so what might work for one, doesn't work for someone else.

Also, what has helped me is finding support groups. I spend a lot of time on my online ones, but I have also found one at my local hospital for infertility and miscarriage and it has helped me to just talk, vent and cry with other women who have faced what I am facing.

Also, there is nothing "wrong" with you. You are just having trouble coping right now and that happens to all of us. There are times when I don't want to take my medicine or want to eat what I want because I figure whay bother, I am not pregnant and never will be. Then I get the lectures from my mom and sisters on how I am important with or without kids and all I did was tell them I sometimes felt that way.

I am sometimes scared to take my blood sugar too, but I found if I set my monitor to control test instead of regular test then I feel better about just doing it. Sort of like playing a trick on myself.

I hope that you are able to find the support that you need. It sounds like you want to take care of yourself. Many times depression works to take all your self power away and can drag you away from what you know is right, and then you feel worse for not doing it and the cycle repeats itself. I suggest you call around to the local hospitals or if you are lucky enough to be in a city the local infertility clinics and see if they have any buddy, or support groups that will help you.

Also, definitely speak with your doctor about maybe switching brands/types of medication or maybe upping the dose on the one you take.

Many (((((Hugs))))) and Best Wishes,
Diana

morebabytearsfromheaven · 11-25-2002, 12:39 AM

Tk- I think having a buddy could be helpful thanks so much and for DianaG. Thanks for your support too.

deligirl · 11-25-2002, 10:30 PM

((((((((((HUGS))))))))))
I really do understand....I've been Type 2 for almost 4 years, I have depression, and I'm recently diagnosed with PCOS. I have a bad family history of DM (mother, aunt, grandmother -paternal and maternal, etc.) and my aunt died last year from complications of diabetes. It's not easy when it's all thrown at you at once, and I get to where I don't care, why should I even try.......

I wish I could tell you tell you it will get better--I have my good days when I really try to watch my sugar ( and my temper

), but then I have days when I'm on the "All-Carb Diet"!!! But as long as we recognize when something's not right and support each other we can all get thru it.

I guess what I'm saying is there's nothing "wrong" with you, and you are not alone in this.

You can email me anytime just to rant, if you want.

Take care

Rachel