My shrink keeps pushing antidepressants on me. I finally told him no more. Every time I get started on one, it helps for a little while, and then I become numb - not sad, but not happy. Nothing.
Is it wrong that I feel like I SHOULD be depressed? Other than these reproductive system issues, I've got numerous other health problems and I'm quite overweight. When you wake up every day in a significant amount of pain and the doctors don't take you seriously and there is NO hope for feeling better, doesn't it make sense that I'm depressed? I don't feel like this is disordered thinking here, I think this is justified.
Last year they kept trying to tell me I was bipolar because I kept going from happy to miserable. But I feel like that was justified too - I was happy one day, then my house was broken into and emptied out (everything including the tp from the bathroom and food from the freezer, every single thing in the house) and I was obviously devastated. Then I started getting over that (and therefore more happy) and then I lost my job (I was working as a nanny, so its not just the job, its losing the kids I had raised for a long time), and I was upset again. This does not seem bipolar to me, this seems like damn bad luck. I FINALLY got the drs. to understand this.
But they are still on me about antidepressants. I don't want to be numb. I'm sad. And I don't like being sad, but I don't want to stop being sad without fixing WHY I'm sad. Doesn't that make sense?
I know I'm depressed. I get it. But I don't want to treat it with meds, I want to treat it with action. I want dr's that take me seriously and try to fix the problems. I want to see something change. And without that, I'm sad. Like days like today, when I sit and cry for hours. That's a problem. But I don't think making myself numb is the answer.
What do ya'll think? Should I take the antidepressants and go back to numb?
What you're saying makes perfect sense. I know that usually doctors prescribe antidepressants in conjunction with therapy. The idea is that the medication helps you through the process of "treating it with action." I don't believe that medication alone will solve all of your problems, so simply going on it and doing nothing isn't really helpful...except for maybe short-term. Are you doing anything else besides taking meds for your depression? It doesn't even have to be therapy.
It seems like you've been through so much! It is natural to feel sad when bad things happen...I guess it just depends on how/if you bounce back. You don't seem bipolar to me Anyways, I hope you feel better...and there is hope!
I've been in therapy on and off for years. I've missed a few weeks because of vacation, but ya know...basically I try. I think I need more. 1 hr/wk isnt cutting it.
I think it's a judgement call you need to make. I was the same way for years, but when they told me to take antdepressants or anti-anxiey meds, I did. Some of them helped, but then some of them didn't. Some of them did exactly what you said, they just made me numb. I finally decided I didn't want to go through life like that. Instead, I talk and try to understand why I'm sad or anxious. I'd rather work my feelings out that way. But that's just me. It's really up to you and how you want to feel.
Follow your gut feelings and you'll make the right decision. Good luck!
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Anyways, I hope you feel better...and there is hope!
