To my Psychiatrist when he told me that Lexapro increases the chances of m/c or stillbirth. Yes, I'm blaming myself right now. I wish I could go back to May/June and just stopped it all together.
I am at a loss I guess. I want to blame this on something, think I have found my answer in doing so. Why did I have to be so selfish in wanting to stay on Lexapro--I put my health, mental health that is, before the life of our unborn child. How can one be so selfish??
BTW--does anybody know anything about Wellbutrin?
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Please don't blame yourself. You did what you thought was best at the time. There's nothing wrong with that- you didn't know what would happen. I did the opposite. I stopped my meds and my baby's heart stopped beating just a few days later. I don't see how it could be a coincidence. For a long time I blamed myself, but over time I came to realize that I did what I thought was best for my baby and myself. It's so hard when you don't have a reason for the loss of your baby. I don't think anyone wants to accept the randomness of m/c and stillbirth. It makes one feel so powerless.
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I still blame myself for eating na'an before my first trimester miscarriage, knowing full well I had insulin resistance. That wasn't even for something important like mental health... it was just because I felt like eating refined carbs. It probably had nothing to do with it. Lexapro probably had nothing to do with your loss. But being completely strict with my carb intake the second time around did make me feel like I had more control ... I figured every little bit helped. So changing anti-depressants might help you feel more in control of things.
Miscarriages *don't* make any sense. You really can't blame yourself. *hugs*
I've read this several times, trying to think of how to respond.
This wasn't your fault. If you could go back and do things differently, you would, but you made the best decision you could with the information you had at the time (a very wise cyster told me that once).
After a loss, our minds look for a reason why it happened. Sometimes, the reasons we come up with make sense, sometimes they don't. You don't KNOW that the Lexapro caused your daughter's death. It could just be a coincidence.
Please try to be a little easier on yourself - this wasn't your fault.