i'm feeling really depressed i dont knwo whats happened its gotten so much worse over the last few hours i don't understand it how can my mood drop so rapidly i got to 13 days withotu cutting and i think i'm going to break it tonight i want to talk but i dont know why i am feeling depressed so how can i talk about it i don't know if that makes sense or not
i'm just feeling so anxious as well like u know that feeling you get when your nervous and u cant breath and u feel dizzy thats how i feel now
lyndsey
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Hey lyndsey
Is there any chance it's related to low blood sugar / hypoglycemia?
Anyway, I know the depressed, anxious feeling. I dont get the restless thing too much...I have had panic attacks, usually only if I have low blood sugar. (I havent been diagnosed...I just call it that.) Hypoglycemia & insulin resistance are tied to pcos. If this is what you have, when you have too much sugar, carbs or caffeine, it might bring on an attack a couple of hours later. Just something to look into. Dont know if this is you?
Hey! Are you feeling any better now? I sure hope you are! My mood gets like that sometimes too! I just do my best to find something that I like doing; or I lay down for a while and see if a cat nap helps! Or how is the weather over there? Do you have any sun that you can take a walk in or sit in? I know it probably isn't the warmest day; but hopefully the sun will help if nothing else does! Take care!!!
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I know exactly what you mean about not having a reason to be depressed and anxious. The answer is that it isn't something external; it's something happening in your body with your physiology. I too experience very sudden, unexplainable mood swings. I've found that meds have helped with this, although I'm still looking for the one that works best for me. Are you seeing a counselor or psychiatrist? If you are cutting, that is a very serious situation and you should seek help as soon as possible. You don't have to feel this way!
I'm very proud of you for not cutting for 13 days! Do whatever you can to keep yourself from cutting tonight. I know it is much easier said than done, but here are some things you might try.
Use ice cubes on your skin where you would usually cut.
Put a rubber band around your wrist and snap it with your other hand (not too hard). It will give you some pain, but it won't cause the damage cutting could result in.
Pop bubble wrap.
Do anything else that keeps your hands busy or gives intense sensations to your skin.
Do something that relaxes you. Light some candles, put on some soft music, close your eyes, and breathe deeply while you count and listen to the air rush in and out of your lungs. Go for a walk. Do some stretches.
I know this one is hard, but do it if at all possible. Tell someone that you trust that you feel like cutting yourself and ask them to stay with you. I know it can be awkward and embarrassing, but you have no reason to be ashamed. Millions of people are going through the same things you are, and it's not something that is your fault.
If you aren't ready to do this, try just going to a public place where you cannot have the privacy to cut without having to travel back home. Maybe buying yourself that time can help you regain control.
Cutting has become your release, so expect to feel anxious while you are resisting doing it. Don't fight off thoughts of cutting. It will only make them stronger. (Don't think of a purple elephant! Now what are you thinking of?) Sit or lie down somewhere. Let yourself experience the anxiety. Just go with it. It will be uncomfortable, but it is the first step in overcoming your anxiety. Admit to yourself that you want to cut to reduce your anxiety, but you have made the choice not to do that tonight.
If you need someone to talk you through it, I'll be here for you. I even have a cell phone with free weekends if you need someone to talk to... and I mean that seriously. I don't want you to have to go through this alone! I hate to see any of my cysters suffer.
That happens to me too. It just has to be brain chemicals that are doing it - not any external reason. Are you on any medication? I find that my anti-depressants help a LOT with evening out those random depressive times, but I still get them, just not as severe.
Have you considered seeing your doctor/therapist? It's worth talking to them about it.
Linny Loo,
Are you doing any better? Please know that you are not alone in this sudden shifting of emotions. For some reason, some of us are prone to that. I know it is probably much easier for me to say than it is for you to do, but cutting is not the answer. I have that drive for physical pain and an intense need to hurt myself at times when I have gotten really depressed. Let me tell you though, not one time has that helped. Often in the end it has left me feeling guilty and worse. You really need a therapist and someone you can talk to when you feel like this. That really does help and is productive. Often I can get to the bottom of why the floor seems to drop out from below me by talking. It is so useful! Plus like others have said, meds have helped as well. I don't get that feeling as often or as intensely anymore. Let us know how you are doing!
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i just found it very confusing because i was happy and then i felt suicidal there was just no notice if that makes sense it just happened like one minute i was ok next i wasn't it was strange and it happens every couple of weeks usually in the evening
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I hate the happy one minute and then completely depressed rock bottom. I don't understand it either. As others can vouch for me here, I had some really good days & then spiralled down.
I think the advice given here has been really really good. Try ice cubes, or what I did was rip & rip bits of paper up.
Also remember the mood is temporary. Try & see it as outside of you like the Self Harm Demon, and fight against it. Self harming feels good at the time because you feel like you are DOING something about your depression, like you have some control back. But its an illusion and the self harm satisifaction is only short term, and then afterwards you look at your scars and feel even worse about it.
So repeat to yourself this is a short term solution and I will not do it. I am strong I will beat this. Think about how good you will feel if you resist.
If you do resist, what I did was reward myself with a massage.
Even coming on here and typing it out can sometimes distract you as well.
Good luck, I believe you have what it takes to resist.
why do i feel like this? 
