Baby Momma--
I know how you feel. I have a daughter, four years old, but I ache for more. Nothing makes things worse than my father and family telling me that God must not mean for me to have more children (among other things I could tell you personally, but not in public forum). My husband even wrestled with the idea that to those who are good with little, much is given. It has been a very dark time. Even before I was dx, before I suspected, before I was married, I tried to guard myself by saying I didn't want children. Even as I am surrounded by friends who easily conceive, I can take comfort.
Remember Leah and Rachel? Leah, who conceived so easily, and so happily, and lorded it over her sister? (whether intentional or not, it feels that way when friends have babies easily!!) Rachel even blamed her husband, and tried to give her concubine to get a child, but when the Lord blessed her, look at her sons!! Joseph and Benjamen, two amazing children. Beloved and remembered.
As another poster said, look at Hannah. A priest thought she was drunk for her begging, but look at the gift God gave her for her faith. Not only did she have Samuel, but his brothers and sisters!! And look at Samson's mother (I forget her name...) She as well conceived!
Being without, or being wanting of children is difficult, but remember that in everything God has a plan. It is hard to hear, and very painful sometimes (I'm kicking myself as I write), but something good can come out of this. Whether you can help someone else, or make someone (like me) realize that the pain is not just you, then what you have gone through has helped. And remember, "For nothing will be impossible with God." Luke 1:37 He made a virgin have a child, is it really out of His power to help any of us?
When this doesn't help, just try to help others... It makes your own pain less. I promise.
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Julia Rose
b:07-09-2004
Wanting to conceive!!
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