I hate PCOS!!!!!! And everything that goes along with it. When I first found out I was relieved because there was a reason why all this sh*t was happening to me. But then when I started gathering info, I would do anything not to have it. Nobody understands unless they actually have it. I have cried more in the last year than I have my whole lifetime because of this awful syndrome. And I am so sick and tired of taking pills! And looking in the mirror for 'hair' in places it shouldnt be...being fat...the list goes on and on and on.
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I at times cry at the drop of pin and i dont know why, its frustrating and very embaressing. I suffer all the syptoms that you' ve said but i also suffer chronic pain in my lower abdomin that at i times i need to be hospitilized to control due to the PCOS. Nobody around me fully understands the hell that i have to endure and that can be very annoying. Ive also had to go through IVF that had to be stopped 3 days before egg retrieval because i hyperstimulated (40 eggs in total) when i should have only produced 8-10 and at this time of year its been very hard wishing i had my own child that could have opened there presents yesterday morning. I just hope that a miracle comes and sorts us all out!!
I know how u feel. Every morning that I get up and and look in the mirror, I ask myself the same thing. I would give anything not to have this facial hair, these mood swings, etc...I get so depressed just looking at myself..How awful! A woman shouldn't have to go through this stuff. So I just try to conceal my flaws the best way I can and hope no one notices too much. And whats the worst is when my boyfriend tries to touch my face, I move his hand away and he thinks that I don't want him to...then he gets mad and thinks I don't want him around. How do I explain to him that its not him!?, but this damn facial hair....I'm going nuts. I will be seeking some form of treatment soon and I hope it helps...
That's so true. Last night, I revealed to my bf the real reason why i don't let him touch my face. He understood and said it was ok. We even read some articles together about PCOS. I can't do anything much about the hair, so hopefully he truly does understand.
Ladies - if I miss one day of plucking, my facial hair gets out of control. I understand and hate every second of it. I see women with smooth faces and I look at my hairy beast of a face and sometimes want to cry. But, I wax and I recommend that you guys do too. I get a lot of hair below my ears on the side of my face and I wax it all off. Just a suggestion...
I understand the crying part......had one of my spells today for no real reason. It's like the stupidest things start irritating me, and I realize there's no reason (except RAGING HORMONES !!!) for it, so I try to just keep it in, but then everything builds up so much I blow like a volcano. I've been undergoing treatment for a month now.....I thought I'd start feeling even half-way human by now. Ugh.
I can relate to what all of you have said - I was diagnosed just over two weeks ago and I feel so helpless. The Met makes me sick almost every day, and my mood swings are out of control. At first I thought I was just in a funk because my Dr. put me back on BCPs (we're TTC) but now I think it may be more than just that. I am sad all the time and sick to my stomach (or in the bathroom) the rest of the time. What kind of life is this? I hope that my body starts to adjust soon...
Happy New Year, Cysters! 2003 is SO not going to suck for us!
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I can very much understand and relate. I have been in a funk, depression really, for several YEARS now over the symptoms of this disorder. I have it all to the extreme, acne, hirsutism, overweight, etc, etc. I feel so unfeminine, so unattractive. I wish the negativity was all in my head, but I am smart enough to realize that these issues ARE a problem for most people. Who wants a girlfriend with pimples and hair all over their face and (fat) body? It's seems to have gotten worse as I have gotten older and I am only 22! How much worse will it get?!? I am far from rich so I dont have many options when it comes to remedying any of this. I went to the doctor for the first time a couple of months ago to try and seek medications to treat this, but with all the testing and such I am still waiting for my meds. I sure hope the new year will be better, I am finding it difficult to even get out of bed and confront the day anymore. Facts are that any woman that's dramatically different from what we see on television (skinny, beautiful skin, non-hirsute) is treated as little more than alive. And that unfair reality is very depressing for me.
Depression is yet another ugly part of PCOS. My doctor's kept telling me to pick myself up by my bootstraps, lose weight, quit whining, go to the gym, etc. They failed to understand that I had to GET to the gym first.. and the depression was keeping me from doing that. I insisted and insisted until they finally prescribed me Wellbutrin for depression. It doesn't have any side effects. Now I feel a little better and am walking a couple of miles a day and eating more healthy foods, and go to the gym at least 4 times a week.
Depression meds aren't for everybody but they have helped me. PCOS is not an easy thing to deal with. Hang in there cysters...
I, too, can empathize- let's face it- PCOS sucks- all around. When I am having a really bad day I just try to put it into perspective. Sure, PCOS is a lifelong condition that is not curable- but it IS treatable. I try to think of those suffering from terminal illnesses from which they will never recover. Whenever I think about it this way- I feel thankful for what little good health I DO have and I feel better (at least temporarily ) It is always going to be an ongoing struggle. But take comfort in the fact that SoulCysters is a community that truly does understand what you are going through- support from fellow cysters can be a lifesaver. I know it has been for me
Hang in there
*Aimee*
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me: 30
DH: 31
DD: *Eleanor Alexandra* 13 months (born 13 weeks early on January 31, 2004@ 2lbs 2.6oz)
Nobody can make you feel inferior
without your permission - Eleanor Roosevelt
We sound like we could be twins. Ha ha. Unfortunately for all the wrong reasons. Its good to know that I am not completely alone in all of this though. This is supposed to be such a prevalent disorder but yet I never see people who suffer with it. Could be they spend most of their time hiding indoors like I do. To ashamed or embarrassed to be seen in public. I also hate this negativity but really you know your image is what alot of your self esteem is based on and if you resent the way you look how positive can you really be about life? Its funny though, I have always been bothered about these conditions, but it seems that it has impacted me more the past few years than ever before. I thought it was supposed to get easier as you get older. I have avoided starting a relationship for more than two years now. There are so many women out there who arent covered with hair, acne and fat, so why would any man choose someone like me over someone who is "normal". You know the old saying, you have to love yourself first before anyone else will. Thats a tough one, maybe impossible.
I totally agree with you in ALL complaints. Im so sick and tired of taking pills myself. I also have diabetes and pcos. I was diagnosed with both of them at the same time, in 1994. Im on avandimet (part glucophage, part avandia) And im on insulin, up to 5 shots per day. I am insulin resistant, but they think that this will help. i dont think so. I have had severe depression since i was a teen, and im 30 now. I dont take my meds everyday like im supposed to, thats probably why im feeling so darn crappy. I have only slept a few hrs in eight days, and my blood glucose levels are spiking really high. If you would like to email me, my email is almnd_eyes29@yahoo.com
i feel at home here. it sucks that we all have to be here but it's nice to know that i am not as alone as i feel.
i get so tired of people that just don't understand. my mother thinks that by reading one article that she has some idea of what i am going through. i'm having trouble finding a decent doctor. they say "oh you just have to lose weight", like it's just as f**cking easy as that sentence is for them to say. I WISH! the only thing exercising seems to do for me is to maintain my weight, although i am gradually putting more on. i eat healthy low GI food as well. It's so frustrating trying to do the right thing and getting nowhere and having no support. i hate going out. in fact a avoid it, i always cancel on my friends because i hate looking at myself. i went from size 10, attractive and confident to size 16, shamed and afraid.
i've started seeing a naturopath and am hoping (like i did with the homeopath) that this one is going to help me. the only positive so far is that i am not as tired as i was.
Why Us? 
I KNOW WGAT YOU MEAN!!! 
) It is always going to be an ongoing struggle. But take comfort in the fact that SoulCysters is a community that truly does understand what you are going through- support from fellow cysters can be a lifesaver. I know it has been for me 
