I usually don't like to be this much of a downer...but I just can't bring myself up lately. Even the sight of my own dh just makes me so angry. I feel like life is failing me. I was just diagnosed with PCOS about a month or so ago....when I was first dx'd I was okay...at least I knew what was going on...but now I just feel powerless. I can't stand all this weight gain...I don't like to go places where I might see old friends or something because I don't want them to see what I look like now. I'm overweight, I have acne all over my face and chest and I have hair on my chin! What did I do to deserve all of this??? I hate myself right now for being like this. I can't stand when dh even tries to pat my arm. I feel like I am totally repulsive. I don't want my ds to think that all women are like this. I want to show him a good healthy lifestyle and I don't believe that I am...even though I watch what I eat, it's to no avail. Please please tell me it will get better...right now it just feels so hopeless.
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(((((HUGS))))) We have all been in your shoes!! I still feel that way!! My advice is to take charge of your PCOS. Research and learn all you need to know. Learn what treatments might work best for you!! KNOWLEDGE is power!! If you ever need anything PM me!! Remember you are not alone!!
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Oh honey I go through this alot and last night I was talking to my daughter and it was during one of thoes Extream Makeover shows. I said that I wanted to go on there so I can feel more glamarous. She said without missing a beat "but Mom you already are"( I am well over 350 lbs.) I loved her so much at that moment.
I totally understand you don't feel good about yourself and you don't want your DS to think that all women are like that. However do it for yourself. Remember you're already showing him the important things in life that women have good hearts and souls and are genuine. Your husband saw this and married you because of it and what your DS probably sees in his little child eyes is that you're the most beautiful women on earth...you know something he's probably right.
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The other two cysters are so right. You need to take charge of your PCOS because it CAN be done and it WILL get better. You have a DH and a DS who love you so much and they will no matter what you look like. It is you that is holding you back. Check out all the forums here, there are ways to battle every single symptom. Find a PCOS friendly doctor who will work with you the whole way.
I just want to say that you do NOT deserve this, nobody does. Unfortunately it is not a matter of deserving it or not, it just happens and it sucks. But please don't feel like it was something you did wrong.
You are beautiful and you are strong and you will get through this and on the other side you will be stronger because of it.
If you need anything, we are always here for you. Please keep us updated on how you are feeling.
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I'm sorry you're feeling so down right now. I know what you're going through! I was just diagnosed in June and I'm having such a hard time right now too. I also weigh over 300lbs and have hair on my chin. I hate when I run into people I know! I feel so embarassed! That's why I mostly just stay home. I also understand wanting to be a good role model for your ds. We are beautiful, blessed and loved. We just need to have faith that things will get better. I hope you feel better soon.
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You are not alone. I stand in the mirror and look at myself and ask why me? Everyday is a struggle for me. Reading these boards and the stories of women who have worked hard, and made positive changes, helps me to keep trying. I have a long way to go, but I want to get there. Don't give up, keep making small changes, and most of all, know that you are not alone.
Wow..you ladies are so great! I am trying so hard to realize that I can overcome this and that there is a reason for why I must go through this. I feel a lot better today...I think I'm going to jump on my exercise bike and maybe take a walk with my son...who, btw, you are all right about...we were watching a makeover show a couple months back and he looked at me and said "mama, you are so much prettier than them"...I need to remember that! Thanks again for all your support! I am so happy I found you!
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i too went through a depression stage when i was dx'd, i think it's totolly nomal!
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I am so glad you are feeling better today. This site is really a wonderful place. We all come here for the support and to be with people who understand what we are going through. We are definitely here for you.
You sound like you have an AMAZING DS, such a love.
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It's not hopeless. Actually, after finding this site, and realizing I was not the only one who was extremely overweight, hairy, losing my hair, and still has acne at 45 years of age, I feel so empowered! You will overcome this, and you have so many cysters here just like you. You are not alone, and we all have probably felt the same way you do. Just realize we are all in this together, and it's not so overwhelming. A lot of your questions have probably already been asked here, so there's a ton of information here to get you on the right track when you are ready to get started. Just take it one step at a time, and you will look back on this later and smile, I promise!
Will it ever get better??? 
I also weigh over 300lbs and have hair on my chin. I hate when I run into people I know! I feel so embarassed! That's why I mostly just stay home. I also understand wanting to be a good role model for your ds. We are beautiful, blessed and loved. We just need to have faith that things will get better. I hope you feel better soon.
