Will I ever stop worrying?

ellieraine · 02-20-2004, 05:58 AM

I was dx Nov 03 after years of different symptoms and wondering what was wrong with me. Finally I have a diagnosis and started the SBD in Jan 04. Since starting the diet my skin looks and feels so much better and my stomach is not bloated. However, I have seen no sign of improvement with my periods (which is not 3 days late again) and my exhaustion has got soooo much worse than it was.

Well that is a bit about me...

My main problem is that I can't stop myself panicking. Ever since I can remember I have always wanted a family and always saw myself settled around my mid-20s. I am now nearly 28 and have just found out about PCOS. I am in the process of buying a flat with my sister as boyf and I are not in the postion to buy yet and I want to get on the property ladder. But, I panic that my dreams of being a mum won't happen. I can't stop myself and I don't know why I keep thinking about it all of the time.

I get very down about work around this time of the month and want to walk out and that gets me thinking about the rest of my life and how I should be making a difference and am just wasting it...

I hate feeling so blue...

Lendi · 02-22-2004, 11:11 AM

hey, it sounds as though you are making some wonderful strides towards becoming healthy. good for you! it takes time though even though it's hard to wait. and, you might need a little bit of help for awhile. some counseling or medication to get all balanced out. anytime a chronic illness is present, grief will happen too. allow yourself to greive and go through the process. but, keep up the good work. you'll get there!

ellieraine · 02-24-2004, 06:27 AM

Thanks Lendi

I have decided to make an appointment to see the doctor and hopefully the diabetic nurse (I am not diabetic, but she can advise me about the diet) later this week. I can't cope with being so tired all of the time and think that I need to talk to someone about it.

My period finally started 5 days late so my mood has improved (I always get very depressed around my period), but I still find myself panicking a lot, I guess I need to give myself time. But, it is hard...

Lendi · 02-26-2004, 09:31 AM

yes, incredibly hard. but you're gonna make it. you're a winner. good luck with your appts. as for feeling tired *i have chronic fatigue syndrome*, i so understand. when you start feeling rested some of the other might fall into place as well. one can cope with a lot when the energy level is there. Good luck to ya