I haven't been posting on here for long but it makes me feel better to share my feelings.I don't know if it is my PCOS making me feel overly sensitive to everything at work. Sometimes I feel like my manager hates me or feel I am not competant in my job. I know I am a very sensitive person for the most part, but I am not sure if this is due in part to my PCOS. I feel like everything I try to do at work I get corrected on or asked why did you do it this way. I am a hard worker and have been told by others on numerous times that I am one of the hardest workers there, but I am not a butt kisser and it seems like the ones that kiss butt are the ones that get ahead. I am just not like that I am quite shy, maybe that comes across as snobby or standoffish. I don't know anymore just venting, bad day. Maybe I should just learn to not take things so personaly and have confidence in myself.
I definitely have my days when i'm more emotional than others. Some days i will just feel like the world is against me, and no one loves me. But i also realize that it is just an emotional day and i remind myself of that throughout my emotional bout. If you have certain days like that. Just remind yourself you are sensitive that day and try not to take anything to heart.
I really hope that you will feel better. You know you are competent and a good worker. I do agree though that sometimes people who are shy get written off as being something they are not. When you socialize you build relationships and when you have a relationship with someone they are more apt to praise you and speak highly of you to others. Well....as long as it's a good relationship. Perhaps you could just try joining in on a "water cooler" conversation. No matter what, don't feel badly about yourself. If you were incompetent then you probably wouldn't be working there at all.
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Maybe I should just learn to not take things so personaly and have confidence in myself.
You are a hard worker which is something to be proud of. I'm the same as you, in the sense that I'm ver sensitive to other people's opinions of me. I feel nervous to be too confident because I feel like then a mistake will look even worse. But I'm starting to realise that if I want anybody else to believe in me, I have to do so as well.
Remember, you don't have to be perfect. You work hard and you care about doing a good job. You sound like a great employee.
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I understand how you feel. I really do. Just last week I took an assertiveness course at work, just to try and get myself out of the "I feel like everyone can walk all over me" feeling. I'm quite shy, and can seem standofish, which must annoy other people. I just kept thinking to myself, "How do I come across to others?" If you feel like a lack of confidence is making people react negatively towards you, then it's something that you CAN work on. Strike up conversations, ask questions, make yourself part of the team.
Sorry for rambling, it's just that this is quite fresh in my mind!
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I'm glad you feel better gator. keep going even when it is hard to - you can do it. i know it is hard to keep wanting to work your butt off when you are constantly being questioned and getting only negative feed-back - but just remember.... you can be very proud that you not only do a good job, but that you did in a some-what negative atmosphere. I'm routing for you! keep your chin up.
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You are a hard worker which is something to be proud of. I'm the same as you, in the sense that I'm ver sensitive to other people's opinions of me. I feel nervous to be too confident because I feel like then a mistake will look even worse. But I'm starting to realise that if I want anybody else to believe in me, I have to do so as well. 
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