I really don't know what to do with myself, I just feel so bad. Everyday it is a struggle to even get myself out of bed, and I just feel worthless. How am I supposed to be a wife and mother? I just....... I hurt so very badly emotionally, I have a child already from a previous relationship but I am unable to give my husband a child of his own, and it doesn't feel fare. I really don't know what to do anymore, I am 24 years old and I can't do anything right, I am not a women anymore, at least I don't feel like it.
I have become a hermit, and I am FAT, Discustilngly fat. I weighed my self tonight
I sit here all day and do nothing, but cry and watch tv and eat and I know that if I don't do something I will die..........but I can't seem to change....... I just keep doing the same thing over and over and over........I just don't know what to do anymore
You are not alone - we might be spread out around the world but there are many cysters who are struggling along side of you. Please don't give up. Can you try to do one thing today - maybe a walk around the block or make a list of the things that you are grateful for?
I have just had to come to terms with changing my antidep - would rather not be on any but hey it means I can begin to climb out of bed again.
Hello Cyster!
I am so sorry things feel so bad right now. I have also been through a time when I couldn't even get off the couch, I was so depressed. I felt like a horrible wife and mother. I agree with Geeza, if you think you can, try to get outside for a few minutes and walk a little bit. That is how I got myself going. I promised myself after I walked for 5 minutes I could quit and go back to the couch. Some days I did, and some days I felt like going a little longer.
Please know that we support you here and think you are a wonderful wife and mother.
I KNOW better days are ahead for you. Keep going!!!
Amanda
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I really do feel your pain. I also feel worthless and when things happen and people lie to me about it especially DH it is all the worse. If you want to know exactly how I am feeling you can read my reply on a thread that was made. Its in the whats on your mind section and the thread is Have you come to terms with your PCOS? Look for Mikes Julie and that is how I am feeling. It has to do with anxiety and depression but I didn't want to post in in two places.
Hope you are feeling better. I REALLY can relate to you when you say you feel worthless.
Oh Huni You are NOT worthless you are a wonderful woman a mother my cyster and much much more with so much to give.
I do understand what you are going through I too am VERY overweight, I feel fat and ugly most of the time and have had a far from easy life so far but there is always hope I know it sounds like a cliche but it isnt it is so much more.
You are young and beautiful, and with the right support we can all do this and get through this together.
**I love you CYSTER** so promise me you will fight this and get through the other side to a brighter and happier future!
maybe you could look out some mother child groups you could attend something to get you out the house and have some outside involvement ... keep yourself busy.
I used to go to Weight watchers which is a tower of support to help lose weight you make some great friends and gets you out the house!
Let me know how you get on and if you ever need to chat pm me anytime!
and promise me this!.... REMEMBER we love you!!!
I will send you some good luck Karma too ok!!!
I am sorry I didn't write again I guess it has been a while.
I am ok but I feel the same way. more crap has happend but I guess I just don't care anymore I just have to go with it and not fight it anymore
thank you for the support and listeneing to my whinning
It sounds like you may be depressed. Did you know that it can be a symptom of pcos? I have to take anti dep even tho I dont want to but it does seem to keep me from feeling like I am drowning. Have you thought of discussing this with your Dr?
Please dont loose hope. We all care for you here and whinge all you like. Its good to let some steam out esp with others who know what its like.
I hope things get better for you, s-robb. I too feel hopeless each and everyday. But things do get better. I just came out of a nasty bout of depression, so I know things do get better. Best of luck to you.
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S-robb, pleaseknow you are not alone. Many of us suffer from the same feelings you are having. Even with the help of medication I find myself slip into the abys of feeling worthless too, and it hurts like hell. Yet knowing that I do not suffer alone, and that I can survive this...helps. Please, come and talk any time.
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Once again I feel like my world is spinning out of control.
I know I am depressed and that makes me more depressed.
Does that make anysense?
I dunno I guess I have just given up.....I don't take my meds anymore, I stopped ttc and I havn't even been on the site for months, well maybe to check in and see If I can help anyone, and I have totally embrassed the fat pants
Nothing will change So I guess I just have to get on with my life and stop whinning
There is a brighter side although it is soo hard to see..you dont have to stop whining whine as much as u want if it makes u feel better.Let it off your chest and stop bottling it up. We as cysters are all here for each other. One thing at a time ..when u start feeling brighter in your self then start ttc if you want to lose weight but dont feel you have it in you try any way. Honestly you are far from worthless and you admitted you are depressed thats a good thing to admit it not bad,no one is going to look down on you.
Think about the positive not the negative. As i said one step at a time and it will make a difference by yourself some flowers or a outfit get your nails done or go swimmin or see as soppy film . all these thing will make u happy and brighter and inspire you to not give up
Feel free to pm if u would like
Jess x
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Worthless 
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